Oh my goodness it has been awhile since I wrote something. I have been so busy. There was Thanksgiving, and then Family Reunion. Boy was I tired after all that. It took me 2 weeks to get rested over that then Charles got sick and went to the hospital for 3 days so I was up most all the time with him. He was really sick on me and I thought I was going to loose him. His heart was racing so fast and he is to old to have that happen to him. Anyway the doctors tell me there is not much that they can do for him. He has had 85 good years so he says that he is ready to go. During all that the church decided that they wanted to make quilts for the Nursing Home so I made 13 quilts in a month. That almost worked me to death but I learned to love doing it so now I hope that I can make one for all my Grandchildren. I know that one day they will appreciate them. I am so very proud of all my Grand kids and I want them to know just how much I love them. The weather has been bad today it has rained all day long. I have not been out of the house except to feed the dog and cat. I hope it want be so long before I come back again. God bless us all.

I have been so bad and not wrote anything for a long time. I just stay so busy. I have been making quilts for the Relief Society. so for I have about 12 of them done. They want 15 to give to the Nursing Home and can't get anyone to help make them. It seems to me they have great expectations but no one will follow through. I have really enjoyed doing this because it makes me think about Mom a lot. I know that she loved doing it. I am just thankful that I know how and can do it.

Charles has had phenomena so I have had to stay in the house with him and make sure he did the things he was suppose to do. I have been trying to keep him out of the hospital. I am just tired of always having to do for some one else. It seems that every day there is someone wanting me to do something. I just have to keep saying Heavenly Father help me to stay where I can. Sometimes I wonder do they appreciate what I do. I just have to keep remembering that "Kindness, Patience, Understanding, Tolerance and Unity will increase as we serve others, while Jealously, Envy, and Selfishness decrease or disappear. The more we give of ourselves the more our capacity to Serve, Understand, and Love will grow.

I am suppose to go this morning and get my H1N1 virus shot. I hope that it does not make me sick. Right now my back is hurting me so bad I can't hardly sit here and sure can walk. It has to get better because it can't get any worse. I pray that I don't have to have surgery. I had to get all my flowers in the green house and I have been in trouble ever since. Then yesterday I had to unload 300 pound of feed to feed all these animals here. But I had to or Charles would have so I choose the lesser of two evils. He tries to be good to me but doesn't have anything to be good with.

Well we got passed Jack's surgery. Went back to the doctor yesterday and he was released to light duty. He can drive but can't pick up anything over 5 to 10 pounds. He sounds good and is suppose to come by tomorrow to get his flu shot. I guess I just need to become a nurse so I can do all of this with no problem. I have had to give so many shots and things since I got to old to do that kind of stuff.

I have spent the day today putting mu flowers in the green house. It is starting to turn cold and I sure do not want to loose them. I have got most of them taken care of so that I want have to worry about them. Still have to put plastic on the front porch so I can keep my ferns in there. They will be all right as long as the frost cant get to them. At least that is what every one says. I usually have to buy new ones every year but was hoping to save them this year. They were beautiful.

I have a big back ache from all the lifting. but I will be okay. I have to go watch Breezy and Megan in the beauty pageant Saturday afternoon so I have to get better. I have to pick up pecans also. got a few and I need to get them up. I would love to cut the leaves up in the yard so it will look better also. Just not enough time in a day any more.

I am so Thankful for what health I have and that I am able to do all that I do. I guess I do fair for a 71 year old. I feel good most of the time. Thank you Father in Heaven for all that I have and for my Children most of all. I love them so very much.

Have had a long day. Got up at 4:30 AM. Got ready and went to the hospital with Jack. Was suppose to have his surgery at 8 AM but had a emergency from a wreck and did not get to him until after 1 PM. I was tired of sitting and my feet was swollen so bad they ached. But they finally got started and it did not take them long to finish. He came up to the room and was hurting quite a bit. Gave him some meds and he was off to sleep. I hope that he slept all night which would be better than I have done. I went to bed at 9:30 and was up at 11:30. For some reason I could not sleep tonight. I have to be up and back at the hospital early this morning to take him home. I am going to be one tired lady tonight.It is now 3 AM and I still can not go to sleep.

Today 34 years ago I gave birth to a wonderful beautiful red haired baby girl. I loved her so very much. She grew up to be such a pleasure. She now has 3 wonderful girls of her own. I hope some day that they all know how very much I love them. I am so grateful to Father in Heaven for the opportunity to be the Mother and Grandmother of these girls. They are so full of life and sure wonderful girls. I pray that the Lord will always bless them that they will only know happiness. I hope they never have to feel the pain or loss that I have had to endure. they have always been such and joy in my life.

I have a terrible week. I had heartburn so bad all week that I thought I wanted to die. Any way maybe I have gotten it better. I am not hurting this morning anyway. I tired 5 lap blankets while I was hurting. We are doing them for the Nursing Home. I have enjoyed doing that. I have tried togeather up the leaves out of the yard but can't hold out to do many of them at a time. I don't know how I will ever get all of them up. Plus the pecan are ready to pick up. My back just will not let me do all that I need to get done.

I have to go to Andalusia this morning with Charles to court. He has a small claims case against Wacovia Bank for the CD that they will not give him his money for. I don't know how that is going to work out. I will just have to wait and see.I am so sick of banks lately that I am about ready to close all my accounts and put my money in my back pocket. Someone had fun on my First National Bank account and spent 750.00 dollars of my money and I had to fight to get that back. I don't know what this world is coming to.

Jack will have surgery again in the morning. He now has a rip in his intestine form the last surgery. I hope this one will get him all well and he doesn't have to have any more. We have done everything to keep them from giving him morphine so I hope we got that all covered. He goes nuts when they give it to him.

Today I can't hardly do anything, my back hurts so bad and my thumb want work. I tried sleeping in my brace on the thumb but it did not help much. I sure wish I knew what was wrong with it put so far I have not gotten anyone to tell me what is wrong.

I have a funeral to go to today. It is Brother Bob Robarbs. He fell off his riding lawn mower and broke his neck. They did surgery on him and he would be paralyzed from the neck down. Then they unplugged him from the machine and he died. I know that had to be hard for Barbara to do. She loved him so much. They went every where together. I sure hope I don't ever have to make that kind of decision. I am so thankful that I have the gospel in my life. I don't know what I would do if I did not know the things I know. I am grateful to Father in Heaven for giving his Son to die for us. I only wish that I and everyone else would learn to appreciate this and learn to love him and keep his Commandments. I have a testimony of this and I am so grateful for that. I pray that I can live my life so that I can go and be with my Father and Mother. I miss them so very much and Love them with all my heart. I pray that I never did anything to hurt them and that when they died they knew that I loved them with all my heart.

I have been working on my yard. I have leaves all over and they are hard to get up. I wish I could keep it looking like it does in the summer. I love it when its all clean and green I have to much to do. I have to pick up pecans and and rack the leaves and try to cut grass again. It got out of hand while I was in Utah. Sometimes I wish I could go back and stay out there.

I have been busy since I got home from Utah trying to catch things up that did not get done. I have a hard time doing all that needs to get done because I can only think about all the things I saw and did while I was out there. I see Presidents Hinkley's headstone and his cane laying there and I just want to sit down and cry. He was such a good man and a Wonderful leader that it makes it hard for me to realize that he is gone. I guess it took seeing all that to make me know that he is gone.

Charles has been really sick for the last few days. Not sure what is wrong with him but he says he is very weak and can't hardly get up and down. He managed to get on the tractor yesterday and I had to go help him pull up the post. He could not get down and wrap the chain around the post to pull it. Now I have a serious back ache because I started picking up pecans. I have to get that done and clean the leaves from my yard. It is a mess but I can only do one thing at a time.

Michelle is going to work a double today. She came home at 11:30 P.M. and is going back at 7:00 A.M. and work until 11:00P.M. She will be dead on her feet. But I guess she will have her double pulled and want have one for some time again. I know it will be hard for her to catch up her sleep though. She is one that can't do without her sleep. She sleeps all the time if nothing is bothering her. Wish I could sleep some. I have been up since 4:30 this morning. My Legs were cramping so bad that I could not sleep. Maybe one day.

I love my Father in Heaven and I know that he loves me. I have to many things that are good in my life for him not to love me. I thank him daily for all that he does for me. I am so grateful that I know the things I know and that I can thank him. Life is wonderful most of the time.

I have the family invitations done and ready to mail. I am so glad that I have that done now I can start on next years. It takes me a year to finish them. I just get lazy and don't do anything with them until I run out of time. hope everyone comes and has a good time.

I have had a wonderful visit with Letha and Melissa. While there I had a visit with the Andreason's, the Glads and Bracken's. I also had the most wonderful opportunity to attend conference. What a great and glorious opportunity that was. To be in the room when the humble and wonderful Prophet came into the room and to see everyone in that room stand and be very silent. What powerful messages they all had to give us. I wish that we could have some of that happen down here so that we did not have to receive it from television. I am still very grateful that when can get it from television. I don't know what would happen if we did not have the chance to listen to the prophet on television.

I am so very proud of my children. They are such good kids and have done very good for themselves. They all have such beautiful children and they are such sweet kids. I would love to bring them home with me for a vacation. Maybe I could have the chance to repay them for the kindness that showed me while I was visiting with them. They all treated me with such respect. I was so very impressed with them. I love them all so very much.

I went to the Book store while in Utah and bought myself some new books and videos. Got some new temple garments while there. Got a new supply of books and clothes. I love to go and visit but am always glad to come home also. Charles was very anxious for me to come home. I think that he realized that he really needs me here to help him take care of himself. He was so cute about the whole thing though. He didn't want me to know how bad he wanted me to come home.

Even Jack came by yesterday to see about me and to tell me that he had scheduled his surgery for November the 3rd. He has always said I don't have to be there but he came by to make sure that I knew when it was going to be. Big boy is not so big when it comes to being alone for scary times. I love him so very much. He is a great brother.

I also got to spend a couple of nights with my wonderful son. One before I went to Utah and one after I came home. I have such a good time with them. They are such wonderful children. My grandson is such an great young man. I can't believe how much he does for his Mom and Dad and what a special young man he has turned out to be. Mike has been a wonderful Father for him. I am so grateful that he has been such a great Dad. He loves to take him hunting and fishing and all kinds of fun things to do. I hope that they can always have that kind of relationship. That is what Heavenly Father would want us to to. To teach our children how to have fun and how to work to take care of ourselves and a bonus how to take care of our parents when they get older. Cindy has such a love for people. She amazes me at how kind she is.

I am leaving on a jet plane. Hurray. I am going to Utah and spend 2 weeks with my girls. I get to go to conference for the first time in my life. It is something that I have always wanted to do and now I have the chance. I do hope that I want be to much trouble for the girls. I know they have a life and I sure do not want to take them away from things they want and need to do. Melissa has a volley ball and Letha has work. I just know that I love them and want to spend some quality time with them and my grandchildren. I know that I want be around for to many more years so I just need to let them know how much I love them and pray for them that they can have a wonderful life. I only wish for them better than what I had. I Pray that none of them ever have to face the things that I had to face. I worry so much that they want know how to take care of their family if things get really hard. I know that the Lord will bless them if they will stay close to him and ask for those blessing. I wish I had the money to help them with all the things that they need. and some of what they want.

I went to the Relief Society Conference last night. Oh what a powerful meeting that was. I love to hear Sister Beck and President Eyring. What a wonderful man he must be. I believe I could sit and listen to him all day. I did get tired and had to stand up for awhile but that was because I was going to have to drive back from Ft. Walton. Was a long drive there and we had to be there at 6 we had a musical program before the conference. One of the Sisters in Crestview plays the violin and what a job she does. She is the Bishop's wife in the 2nd ward. He is the new doctor in town. Such a cute couple, their name is Roberts. She is expecting their 5th child. She looks so young. She played while she was at BYU and won lots of awards. I should be so lucky.

This may be the last time I get to post anything for two weeks. I am going to Utah and visit the girls and go to conference. I cant wait to see my girls. I wish there was some way I could let them know how very much I love all of them. My life has always been center around my children and they have been my life. Next to My Father in Heaven there is nothing I love more. I wish that they lived close enough that I could see them more often but that was their choose. They are good girls and I am very proud of them as well as all my children. Michael makes me so proud that I could pop with all his talent. Such beautiful things he makes.

Good morning, Today had already been a long day. I was up at 5:00 AM Had cramps in my legs so bad I could not sleep. As soon as the daylight came I was outside trimming the yard that I cut yesterday. I got that all done and was back in the house by 8 AM. Now I am hot and tired. Bit I will do no more today. I have a meeting in Ft. Walton Beach this evening. I will be going to the Relief Society Conference meeting. We are suppose to have a music presentation before it starts with a light meal. If there is food then I will be there. I have been blessed with some beautiful flowers this year some I have never seen before. I only wish I could keep them from freezing this winter. They sure cost me a arm and leg to replace. Charles has really been having a hard time finding air. I am not so sure that I need to go off and leave him but I want to go so bad. All I can do is pray that he will be okay until I get back. He tells me he will be fine. I am very excited to go to conference. I will also get to see the Brackins, Glads, and some of the girls while I am out there. I only wish I could see them all. Maybe I will also get to see the Andreasons. Anyway this is a picture of my Star Cactus.

Went to church this morning. No one was there. We only had 7 members from our branch. We had the stake high council and his family which made it be 12. I am so afraid that they are going to close this branch. Just can't get Michelle to go. No one seems to be interested in going any more. I love Father in Heaven and I wish I could get everyone to Love him that way. I would do anything for him, but it is hard when everything you say or do is misinterpreted. I wish I could go some place else sometimes. It is so hard to be the only one that will do anything. I am sure they have problems also but we need to remember that Heavenly Father died for us so we could live with him again if we do what we should. I try very hard but fail so I am thankful that he is a forgiving Father in Heaven. Today is a bad day for me. I am hurting so bad in my back. I can't hardly sit and sure can't stand.

Oh my goodness. I am so far behind. I have been sick, and Charles has been sick. We have had company. Richard Young (my nephew) and his family have been here and spent a couple of days and Charles's friend Ronnie and wife Laura came and spent a day with us. We had to buy and new lawn mower and so I have been cutting grass. (love that) The new mower is great. I can cut this big yard in 3 hours. Sure wish I had bought this a long time ago. The leaves are falling and everything is getting ready to go to sleep for the winter. I just hope that everything will come back next spring. I love my yard and it sure looks beautiful now except for the leaves.
I had hoped to get a new flower house before winter but did not make it so I will have to make do again with what I have. Oh well that is better than some people have. I should not complain the Lord has so richly blessed me with a great family. I am so grateful that Jordyn is through her surgery and doing okay. I hate that she has to hurt like she does but at least she will be better soon. I love my girls so very much. I am leaving on Oct first to go out there to visit them and go to conference. Can't wait. I have always wanted to do that so I finally get to go. I am excited to go and be in a room with a prophet of the Lord in the same room. Life is good and I love to live it most of the time. I only pray that Charles will be okay while I am gone.

I get farther and farther apart doing my job of writing. I have so much going on that I can't seem to find the time to sit down and do this. I want to keep up with it but just don't seem to be able to. We have had a good week except Charles has some cold and he is having a hard time finding air. His blood sugar has been high for a week now and I guess I will have to take him back to see the doctor. I was hoping he would get better by himself but it doesn't look like that is happening. I have my tickets to go to Utah and 2 tickets for conference so I am excited to go out there. I have always wanted to go to conference and this is the first time I have had a chance to go. I hope it will all work out. I will get to see my youngest granddaughter baptised and see conference. Boy what a treat. I bought about 80 pounds of pork on Friday so I have to make sausage again. I am not out of sausage but I have to take care of the meat so here we go and I have to buy it when it is on sale. I wish I could afford to buy it at any time but that ain't going happen.

Charles bought me a new lawn mower on Friday. I want be able to buy much of anything now. That thing cost a lot of money. I sure hope it last better than all the other ones we bought. I will try to get a picture of it and put in on here before long. I am so grateful for all that I have the Lord has really blessed me with all the needs of my life. Thank you Father in Heaven.

Today has been a lazy day. I was suppose to get up early and go to Milton to Elisha's Dedication but he got sick so they had to postpone it until a later date. So I have just sat around all day. I got up and fixed breakfast and messed around and crochet all day until I had to get up and get ready to go to Crestview with Hazel Adams to get her Patriartical Blessing. I so lazy that I did not even get up and go to church this morning. I have not done that in a long time. But I did watch BYU tv all day. So I had better church anyway. I saw the choir and ever thing. It was really good. I had a good ride with Hazel to Crestview. We had a good talk. Then I had a chance to talk to Diane about Kenny. She said she had been up to see him yesterday. I know that Bonita was please to see them. She had called me and ask who she could get to help her with getting Kenny in Church. Love that boy and sure wish I knew what to do for him.

I work hard in the Yard on Friday so hard that I blew up the Lawn Mower. I mean it blew. I am going to had to buy a new motor for it now. But I was tired of putting oil in it every time I cranked it. So maybe when I get it fixed this time it will be a much better mower. I love to cut grass. I have a lot to cut to. l

Yesterday was Michael's Birthday. I did not get to talk to him but called Cindy and talked to her. She said he was home opening his cards when she left. I would have loved to talk to him but I cant reach him by phone so I just have to talk to Cindy whom I love very much. They are wonderful kids and I wish I could spend more time with them.

Today has been a lazy day. I really have not done any thing much. I fixed breakfast and dinner and that is about all that I have done.I had company this morning and again this afternoon. President and Sister Moore came up this morning and Gene Looman came by this afternoon. He has messed up his computer and thought he could fix it if he had wireless Internet. But like me he doesn't know enough about it so he did not get it fixed.

We had steak fingers and baked sweet potatoes for dinner. It was very good and I am stuffed now. Chuck came over this evening and got himself some watermelons. He stayed for a little while and went back to Jacks. I wish I could have the time to go over and spend some time with them. I miss all the fun things we use to do. I love my brothers and I wish that we lived closer together. They are really good to me. I love all my family and wish we all lived close enough that we could get together more often. I would love to have some pictures of all of us. I guess I will never be able to get another Family picture.

Today is my Michelle's Birthday. Lordly I am getting old. I wish I could make life so it would be better for her. She has had a bad day I am sure. I wish that Josephs kids would do like they should so she would not have to worry about them. I have had a busy day. Miss Effie and Uncle Bill, Don and his Wife came by and got some watermelons and I tried to clean the house before they got here. Of course I did not make it. My house stays a mess all the time. I have to much to do and I don't have time to clean house. I did have a good day. I caught 7 baby guineas and put them in the box with their Mother. So I hope I can raise them. They are so dang cute. I just love to find them and raise them up. They get loud when they get grown but I still love to raise them.

Betty Jo called me this morning. I guess she will be going home next Tuesday. She has been at Michelle's for 5 weeks. Michelle had to have some surgery. But all is well now.

Boy has it rained today. Must have been another 3 inches. I took Audra and Joshua to Defuniak today. I had a really swell time even if it did rain. We got Audra a pair of shoes. That Child has such a little foot that you can find shoes for her. We went to the Shoe Store found her some on sail for 8 dollars. I was shocked. They are cute. They had a flower on the top and a small heel,. Se is so short she needs something to help her out some.

Joseph's Son Cameron has got himself in a mess. He is in the hospital and tested positive for a bunch of drugs. Not sure what is going to happen. He also may have to have some surgery.

I am so sleepy. I got up at 4 this morning to iron. Thank goodness I did not have but 6 pairs of pants for Charles with 6 shirts. So I was done by 7 this morning but did not get to take a nap like I planned. I have a new batch of baby gunies that hatched today. I will take them off tomarrow and put them in a box. Can't wait to see them run around. They are so dang cute.

Been really busy. Charles fell off a ladder several days ago. He did not break anything but he sure has felt bad ever since he fell. I took him to the doctor and they did not find anything other than his body was trying to tell him he must slow down some. I have really been worried about him.

Things have been good since Marla moved in. She is a lot of help to me. I can start doing the laundry and she will finish it. I cut grass for 3 days trying to get it done. I had not been able to do it all year because the lawn mower was messed up but I finally go it all done. I did not get all the trim work but it still looks very good compared to what it did look like. I needed to turn the horses in and let them eat it but they would have eat my flowers and I have to much money in them.

I have two tickets to go to conference if nothing happens. I have the plane tickets to get there and the tickets to see it if Charles will stay well so I can go. I was called to be the Primary President on August 9. 2009. It has been a long time since I worked in the Primary. I hope that I can do a good job and get Megan back going to Church. I wish that the Branch would grow so we could have a lot of Primary and Relief Society. I love my Father in Heaven and wish that everyone could feel the way I do. I love my children and want what is best for them. I wish they knew just how much I do love them. Can't believe that I would have been married 48 years today if I had stayed married to my Childrens father. But of well I have a wonderful husband now that I have had almost 10 wonderful years. he is very good to me.

I feel really bad today. I have had Ryan Clark Fisher on my mind all day long. I cna't help but wonder what is happening with him. His Mother loved him so much and I am sure glad that she is gone and did not have to go through this with him. Still do not know what happened to him all I know is that they found him in the water with all the vital organs full of water. Don't know if some one hit him or if he fell in the water. I know I am not making much sense out of this but he is Stella Fishers youngest son. He has no brain waves going on much and they are really worried that he is brain dead. Life can really deal some hard blows sometimes.

I have had Mama Weaver on my mind a lot today. I wish I could see her and Mother and talk to them. I miss them both so very much. I don't have any one that I can tell my troubles to any more. Sherri has moved away and I never know when she is busy and I hate to call her. I guess I will just have to stay busy more and not think about it. Eva Dell called me today and I had a good talk with her. But I can't really talk to her about things that are troubling me.

Marla is home from work. I guess she had a fair day. I know its hard for her. That is hard work. But swhe loves it and I did also. The only reward you get is know that the Lord loves you for what you are doing for all those old folks. The pay is not very much. They do need someone to love them.

Had a good day except Charles fell a couple of days ago and he is so sore that I had to tend to all the chickens for him. I don't know what I am going to do with him if he do't stop climbing a ladder. He took quite a fall but did not break anything.

I found a bloom on my Pelican plant this morning. Boy is that thing beautiful. I am trying to root one so I can have a back up one. So far I have not been able to do that. I also put up 4 quart and 1 pint of peaches off out tree today. If I had not waited so long I could have gotten more but was so busy I forgot about them. I picked a qallon of blueberries from my bushes and I have put up 9 Quarts of figs off our tree. I have had a busy summer and it is not over yet. My lawn mower is on thr fritz so my yard looks awful. I hope to get it going soon and get the yard cut. I am almost afraid to go out for snakes. We have killed 3 out there already.

I learned something new today. I learned how to submit something to the Branch Calendar. I was surprised that it was so easy. I had never looked at it to see if I could until today. I may be old but I can learn new things. How about that one? It has rained so much for the last few days. We got 2 1/4 inches yesterday and I bet it rained another 2 or 3 inches today. I really did not want it to rain so much because the pecans want make anything if that keeps up. I was looking at them today and there a lot of them if they don't fall off.

President Coleman called me today and said the Sister Fishers Youngest son Ryan Clark got injured in a boating accident yesterday. He is in critical condition. I sure hope that he get better.

Marla is home and tired because she has to work so hard. I wish that she could get her a Job that would not require her to have to do so much manual labor. She really has a hard time with it. There is no way I can let her stop and me keep her up though. Shw will just have to keep trying. She has the cutest little dog and he loves her so much. He is so small that its hard for me to take him out. I am afraid he will get away from me. and I can't get him back.

Michelle started to work and had to turn around and come back up to 0602 because there was a huge tree across the highway 331. It went all the way across. We had had some bad wind but I did not think it was that bad. Anyway thank goodness it was before she had to go to work.

I have had a busy week as always. Joshua was pretty sick a couple of nights ago. He was at the Emergency Room about all night I guess. Michelle left work and went over there to be with him. She did not get home until 5:30 in the morning. I did not get any sleep hardly because I was not with her. I sat here and worried. They finally let him go home about 3:30 and she called me and I went to bed and went to sleep but was up again at 6:30 for the day. I am sure glad I have all my kids grown and now I wish some times that I had the Grand Kids grown. It is so hard not to have them here so we know what is going on with them. They are still so young and tender. I know that Heavenly Father will take care of them but I so want to be there and know what is going on. I worry about all of them but those 3 are so alone. I do not believe that Stacy knows how to take care of them. It is now 11:45 and I can not sleep because Audra called me at 10:00 and I don't know why. I could not get to the phone before she hung up So its worry time again.

Things are going good with Marla here I think. She seems to be able to handle everything okay. She and I cleaned out the trailer for Charles today. We had all the dishes from the travel trailer in there and so we put them all up in the barn. She is a lot of help to me. She does the dishes almost every time we eat. I think she loves to eat grits and eggs with us when she if off. Charles seems to enjoy having her here also. She goes to the Pond with him all the time to keep him from being by himself.

Charles has been having a hard time with his health lately. He is having some trouble with his heart. I have noticed that he is having to take a lot of nitro tablets. I don't know what the heart doctor wil say about that. I will be gone when he goes back unless I call and change the appointment. I may do that.

I have this wonderful friend who has lung cancer. She is the strongest person I know. I have never seen anyone who has tried so hard to beat this other than maybe Annie Mae. I am not sure that if this happened to me I could hold out like they have and did. Peggy has been such an insperation to me. She would get up and leave home at at 6:30 on Sunday Morning to be at church in Paxton because her husband was the Branch President. He had a Birthday on Sunday the 19th She gave him a surprise party and I was one of the few that got invited. I had a really good time. They live in Crestview so I did not get home until 8:30. Today is George's Birthday. I called him this morning and talked to him for a minute.

I have to get back outside to cutting grass. It is only 7:30 and I have about half of the push mowing done. It gets to hot if you wait very long. But I had to come in and get me something to drink. Charles is still in the bed and Marla went to work to see if they would let her work. She has got the shingles all over her now. I am not sure that it is the shingles. I have never seen them look like that. I wish she could get herself well enough she did not have to go to the doctor so much. I don't think its good to do that.

Oh what a day. I recieved a invitation from Sister Jones for her wedding. She sure turned out to be a beautiful woman. I wish I could go but that aint going to happen. I am about to lose my mind because Marla is here all the time. She has the shingles and is off from work. Now she is under foot all day long. I don't know how long I can stand for her to be here. I know she wants to help but she doesn't know how I do things so it bothers me. She has got that little dog and I really don't like dogs in the house. I wish I did not feel liek this but I can't help it. I know she is not still clean so it really makes me feel helpless. I am ready for a break and it has only been 2 days.

I am just very tired and need a week of rest with nothing or anyone to bother me. I have Carlie's blanket done and Bailey's is half done. Got to get it finished so I can take it with me to Utah in October. Shari came by and visited for a while today and I really enjoyed her visit. I wish she could have stayed longer. I love to talk to her. She is such a wonderful person and makes me feel so good. Love Shari

Today has been busy so for me I have been up since 5:30 AM I forgot to turn the sprinklers off last night so the flower beds got watered very good for a change. I want be able to pay the water bill next month but at least my flowers will live a little while longer.

Marla has gotten moved in and hopefully got ever thing she needs to live here. I have a house full and don't know what to do with all this stuff I had before. I hope we can make it work until she gets her own place. I have worried about her for months so now she is here and maybe I can check on her more often. I know she needs to be here so she will have someone to talk to. Marla also has the shingles. I know how bad they can bother you so I hope the doctor has given her something that will make them get well.

I have a meeting with the Relief Society Presidency at one so I have to get up from here and get myself busy and get ready to go. I have the worst sinus draniage I have ever had. I sure hope it does not make me sick again.

I love my grandchildren so very much and most of them are about to grow up on me. Kayla is 20 and Sarah is 18 Rober is 16 almost. The youngest one will be eight in October. My goodness they will be grown before I know it. Love them all. Heath is so growup that I can't get him to come to see me any more.

Went to dinner with Daniel and Kitty tonight. Had a great time. Came home and went to bed and was up at 1:30 AM and could not sleep any more. Don't know what I am going to do about not being able to sleep. I have so much running around in my mind that I can't stop it from thinking so I can sleep.

Jolyn came by and picked some peas while we were gone. I don't think she got very many but maybe she got enough for them to have a mess or two. Doug has a terrible cough and I wish he could find something to do it some good. I wish more that he would stop smoking.

Marla moved in the house with us yesterday. I hope that will work out okay. Not sure right now. She had took something yesterday and she was acting funny last night. I only hope this does not turn out to be a disaster. I love her very much and I wish she could fix her life so she was back to her old self. I know that Father in Heaven can do it if she would only let him. She has to want it and work with him for it to happen.

Today we went to the Pulmonary Doctor. He told us about the same thing the heart doctor told us on Monday. We just have to stay in out of the heat and wear the oxgyen all the time now. We then went to Ryans to dinner with Joseph and the Kids. Today was Audra Mae's birthday. She turned 14 years old. I can not believe that she is that old. Such a sweet and smart young lady. Love her so much. She had Jessica Fickett over to spend the night for her birthday. They sure seem to have hit it off quite well. I hope that it will help Jessica to come to Church more. She is such a cute girl. She has grown so much. She is as big as a 15 year old young lady.

I got my tickets tonight to go to Utah in October. I just hope that Charles will stay healthy enough for me to go. I have wanted to go to Conference all my life and I hope that it will be okay and Charles' will stay healthy enough for me to go. I have it planned to go to conference, and Carlie's Birthday and baptism. I hope to get their blankets done before I go so I want have to pay to ship them out there.

Today we went to the Heart Doctor. He gave us some news not unexpected but not what we wanted to hear. Chalres is not a candidate for bypass surgery again. He also refused to do a catheration. Because he had a stroke after the last one. I can understand why but I sure wish he could see his way clear to do it. Anyway I guess I will have to live with what time I have left with him.

We went by to see Miss Effie and Uncle Bill Akins. Had a wonderful visit with them. Brought home a box full of flowers that I had to plant. Got that done and went to the pond and found 15 baby geniue. Had to catch all of them and put them in a box. I am afraid that I will loose all of them because they got wet and cool. Maybe they can make it. I covered them and put a light on them. Maybe they will be okay through the night;

Today I have felt really bad. I did not go to Church today. My back is killing me and I have to get up early in the morning to take Charles to the heart doctor. He got up not felling well himself. His heart was acting up and he was weak. He is in his chair now taking a nap. I have really been worried about him. I am afraid that I am going to loose him before I am ready. But I do have the Lord to lean on if I can but remember to do that. I only wish I had had more time with him. I believe I could have made a difference in his life. But Heavenly Father will have to change him now for I have done all I can. I love him and wish I could make him see the imprtance of an Eternal Family. But I guess I can take care of that after he is gone. I wanted to know the joy of having that family but I guess that is not to be. I love my Father in Heaven and pray that I can please him with my actions.

Had a day that I did almost nothing. It was great. I got up at 7:00 and watered grass all day. I sure wish it would rain but so far nothing. We have had a couple of sprinkles but nothing to do any good. I know that the Lord knows what is best but I sure hate to see all those peas and watermelons go to waste. They have to have a little water to make it work.

We went to see Aunt Eva Dell today. She sure looks old and does not get around good at all. She was sitting in her chair sleeping when we got there. Left there and went up to visit Terry and Janet. Jordyn had Gastric by pass surgery on Monday and we went up to check on him. He sure has gotten to be a big boy. Maybe he can get it off and keep it off.

I want be able to pay my water bill this month. I have had to water flowers every day. It sure takes a lot of water to do that. I hope that Heavenly Father soon has a little pitty on me and will let it rain. I could pick some more peas if it would do that. Oh well I guess I don't need them anyway. I sure don't need to have to pick them. Of course I could sell them if I could get them picked.

Today is July 1. I went to see the doctor yesterday. I have had a sinus thing going on for weeks. Finally had to give in a go see the doctor. He gave me a shot and a hand full of pills. I sure wish I could get to feeling better easily. It seems I have to always have the hard mess to get rid of. I think most of my problem is the fact that I have been so worried about Charles. I wish that Life did not have to be so hard. I know the Lord loves me but I sure have a hard time some times trying to get through it. I do have my share of trials. But we are to have trials in all things and I am so blessed with so many things.


The weather is so hot and dry that I sure wish that we could get a good rain. I have some new peas and watermelons that sure need some rain. It rained a few minutes day before yesterday but nothing since. It was only enough to dampen the top so it did not help except to cool it down a little. The tempeture has been up to 100 for over a week now. It is so hot.

Michelle has gone to girls camp with Audra this week. I hope she is having a good time. She works so hard and does not have time to do anything with her kids. They need her so bad. I sure wish I had the energy to do more for her. Marla will be moving in on Friday the 3rd. I sure hope this will make things good for her and she can get the building for the apartment like she wants.

I am so gretful to my Father in Heaven that He has provided me with such a wonderful life. I love Him so very much. He is such a Wonderful Father to me. I only wish that I could serve Him better in all my life. I try but I come short of the mark an awful lot. I know he will forgive me but I wish that I could do better. He is always there for me and I wsih that I could always do the same for him. But I feel that I fall short a lot. I hope that my Children and Grandchildren do a better job than me.

Have had a busy day. Got up early and watered all the plants and fed the chicks Then came in the house and strated the laundry. Starched all the clothes and then about 12 o'clock I started ironing. Did not get done with it until about 4:30. I sure get tired of doing that about every 2 weeks. Any way I can't stand for Charles to put on clothes that is not ironed. I then fixed dinner and we had a wonderful dinner. I made a zucchini casserole and had fresh peas and pork chops. I ate way to much. This was the first time I made the casserole but it was wonderful. Anyone that likes vegetables would love it. Of course Charles would not eat it. I don't think he even tried it. But I will cook it again. I like to make new things. I have to make a picture of the Garden so I can put it on here. Sister Kelly wants one to put in the News Letter also. I have 2 blooms on my Pelican plant and they sure are pretty. I have to get one of it also.

I had the best experience at Stake Conference Yesterday. It was great. I love to hear President Miller speak. The Mission President and his wife also spoke. Not sure how to spell it but their name is Sumerhaze. I wanted to speak to them but did not get the chance. Wonderful people. We have a new Bishop in Crestview. His name is Doctor Roberts. He also spoke and did a wonderful job. I did not know at the time but my cousin Paul Lawson was suppose to speak but Aunt Elizabeth fell the day before and he did not get to come to conference. I have to go visit with her. She is 91 years old and I am sure she want be around much longer. Love her so very much. Wish I could do more to help her.

Had a busy day yesterday. Michelle Joseph and myself got up at 5:30 AM and picked 4 and 1/2 bushels of peas. Then shelled all of mine went to Ponce DeLeon and picked up Robert from Boy Scout camp. He was one tired boy when he got home. I bet he is still asleep. Then I got home and shelled peas for Michelle to help her get hers done. I am sure that we have put at least 75 quarts in my freezer and 50 or more in hers. We have picked all togeater 15 bushels of peas. So she and I both says we are done no more. My back hurts so bad I can't even sit without it hurting. I need to clean my house and get it back in shape. I guess Marla will be moving back home next week. It seems Mark has sued her for child support and she can't afford her house anymore. I am a little worried about her coming back. I wish I could get everything straight with her and she could have a good life again. But I can't do it she has to do that herself, If she would only believe in God and do things she was taught as a child she might do that. I love my Father in Heaven and I know that He loves me and I sure wish she could do the same. I thank him everyday for all that he does for me.

Took Charles to the doctor today. He has really been having a lot of trouble breathing. Well they did an EKG and found a fibrillation going on so we have to make a trip to Pensacola to the Heart doctor. I am a little concered but can only hope that it is nothing. He has really been down for the last few days. We went to see the Great Grandson on Fathers day and he has been a little worried like ever since. I don't know what is going on but he does't act like himself. We had a long and busy day today. Had to get my shots and take him to the doctor and then get some breakfast and go to Walmart then get oxygen for him. Then come home. We left at 8:30 this morning and did not get home until 4 this afternoon. I was give out. Hope tomarrow will be better.

Oh what a day I have had. I got up early and picked a bucket and a half of peas. Then came in the house to get a bath. Decided that I had better check on Charles and found him at the tractor barn with a wheel off the tractor. So there I was for the next two hours trying to jack up the tractor and put the tire back on. Finally got that done came in a got my bath and then shelled peas the rest of the day. So needless to say that I am tired tonight and ready for bed. We had steak for dinner and I am so full and tired. It rained in Laurel Hill but not here and we sure need some bad. If it would rain I would have lots of peas. but if it doen't soon then they will die and I want get any more. We have picked about 9 bushels already so I can't complain. I wish I could get some squash and cantlelope. That would be my greatest wish right now. I love them.

Today has been a great day. It was Father's Day. We went to Dan's and had lunch. It was really great. Kitty's Sister Nola, sister-in-law Betty and her husband Dan, Bruce, Terry, Paul and thier daughter Aaron was there. We really enjoyed visiting with all of them. I really like Kitty's sister Nola. Then we came back by and saw Elisha Ray (Buster). He has grown so very much and such a beautiful baby. Kimberly has really made a great Mother so far. She has really surprised me she has grown up so very much. She said she wants him to call me Granny. I don't know if that will happen or not. Anyway I love the baby. He is really a cute one. We bought him a box of diapers for the help David was in putting down the bathroom floor last week-end. He did a pretty good job.

I went to church this morning. We had a couple of good speakers. Brother Kelly from Niceville and a young man who just got back off his mission. I don't remember his name. There was only a few people there. I sure wish we could get people started back to church. We had the Fickett Family there all six of them. Then Kenny Wollridge, Hazel, Brandon, the Colemans, and Myself. That was it. Michelle got up not feeling good so they did not go. I only went for one hour.

June 15th 2009

I took Aunt Elizebeth to the Dentist. Had a wonderful day and wish I could find more time to spend with her. She is such a strong willed person. She just had her 91st birthday. I hope I can stay as healthly as she has been. Love her lots.

We went out to dinner last night with The Akins from Pensacola and the Caraways from the Wing area. We really had a great time. I got up at 6 AM this morning and started cutting grass. Now I am tired and I have to make several dozen cookies for our Father's Day gifts for Church. We choose to do that for Relief Society and Young Women. I am going to get Audra and Jessica Fickett to come help me make them. I would almost rather do it by myself. But the girls need the experience. I picked peas this week and made Jam, did some squash, and canned some peaches so I have had a busy week. I am so happy that I am able to do the things that need to be done here. The Lord has blessed me so very much. I have had a wonderful life. Always busy and that is the way we are suppose to be. If we stay busy then the stay out of trouble. I love the Lord and I am so gretful to him for all my blessings. Thank you Father in Heaven.

I have been busy for the last several days. My peas had to be picked and I picked them. Now I have a back ache that want wait. I picked and shelled over a bushel put up 9 pints of squash, 10 pints of strawberry's and 7 quart of peaches. It seems that when it rains it pours. Charles fixed a fan to put on the front pourch to pull the hot air out of the hallway. There seems to always be something that needs to be done around here. I have not yet gotten all my grass cut. I have pulled weeds out of the garden until I am sick of that job.

Today we are going for lunch with Bill and Effie Akins from Pensacola. I am not in the mood for that but we have been planning for a week to go so I guess I will go anyway. I don't know why I feel so bad today. I talked to Melissa yesterday. From what she said the girls really liked their gifts I sent. Jordyn was happy about the shirt. I hope so anyway. I miss talking to them. But one day maybe everything will be back to normal.

I went to Mama Weaver's house yesterday. I went to see Candy. She gave me a poem to put on the bags of cookies that I will be handing out for Fathers Day. I loved it.

My Father

I've watched your hands

Work busily

So many things you've

Done for me

Without you, there could

Never be..

My Father

Your words of wisdom

Reach my heart

You Pray for me when

We're apart

You've given me a special

Start..

My Father

You work so hard and

Thus provide

A shelter, Warm, and

Safe inside

Two words, that fill me

With pride..

My Father

I know I never can repay

The things you do for me

Each day

Please feel my love each

Time I say

My Father

I miss my Dad so much and I wish he were here for me to tell him how very much I love him. I know that he knows but I would still love to tell him just one more time.

I had a great day yesterday. I went to a canning class and learned that I know a lot but not everything. I was greatful that Sister Debbie Anderson gave the class. She really knows how to make a person think she knows a lot. She kept tell everone that I was the one that had a big garden and the tractor. I do have a big garden but it does not all belong to me. Bill and Effie Akins and Don and Peream Chandler (Brother and Sister) from Pensacola has 12 rows and Bill and Lonnie Coleman have 8 rows in there. I have six rows of watermelons and 8 rows of peas and 4 rows of corn. Then I have some snap beans, cantaloupe, squash, (yellow and zucchini's) Pumpkins, tomatoes, bell peppers, hot peppers, and collards. It keeps me busy trying to keep the sheep spurs and sand spurs out of it. I have worked really hard trying to do that this year. I hate to try and pick the stuff and get burrs all over me then come in and have to pick myself. Oh well.

I sent Melissa and package with a shirt for Jordyn and the name tags for Janna and Kennedy. Have not heard if the got them or not. I do hope so because I spent money on them and then the postage.

Megan stayed here with me last night. She is asleep on the couch and I had to get up to get my pork pulled for Bar-B-Q today. Doug and Jolyn are coming to put down new floor covering in the bathroom across the hall. I have a Reilf Society lesson for Sunday so I have to prepare for that also. Need to mop the kitchen floor. Just to many things that need to be done. And here I sit in front of this computer. I needed to do this also. I stay so busy that I forget sometimes to write down the things I want to remember. I am greatful for this opportunity to hopeful write down some things for the kids to read and think about when I am not here. I love my Father in Heaven and I am so grateful that I can live in this time and be free to worship and believe in the Lord the way I choose. I am grateful for my ancestors who joined this church and taught me to live a good life. I pray that I will always be aware of the importance of worshiping the Almighty God.

Today is Sunday. I have been to church and had a good day. We only had a few there but it was a good meeting. I only wish I could help to activate more of the ones that are not coming. Jessecia Fickett came and bore her testimony today. How very sweet that was. She thanked Michelle for the time she has spent doing things with her. I only wish that Michelle had more time to spend with her and Audra. They really need a Mothers help in their lives now. Jessie has been in a little trouble at school so her Mother took her out of school and is home teaching her.

Charles Called Doug last night and tried to fix it so we could go see them today. It seems that they are all busy doing other things and do not have time to let us come to visit. He wanted to go see that Baby so bad. I guess he will be walking before we see him again. I get so upset about that but nothing I can do. I will not get on the phone and beg them to see us. It seems that I have to cook a huge meal to get them to come. Anyway that is the way life is here at the Peoples Place.

I will go with Michelle to take the kids back to their Dad today I hate that so much. They need their Mother to help them to become grown ups. I love them so much. I wish I could do more but do not know what I can do.

Have had a busy day. Worked in the garden. Fertlizered the watermelons and turned the vines so we could plow them. Then took Marla to Defuniak to pay her taxes. Found out last night that I have to give a talk in Branch Conference Sunday. I am scared to death about that one. Do not know what I should say.

President Coleman has ask if he can move his trailer out here. I am really confused about what to do. Marla wants to put her one out here and she wanted hers there first so I guess I will have to tell him that he will have to find some where else to put his. Marla was really hurt when she found out that he wanted his there.

I came home and cut grass this afternoon and I am so tired I cant hardly sit here. Now I have to bake a cake for Sunday. Got to get up and get busy. I will be glad when we get some more members here so I can have a break. I am tired of having to do so much all the time. I get very tired anymore.

Had a great trip to the temple with Sister Synder yesterday. There was four of us that went and we had a great trip. Everyone was cordual and we had a smooth trip. It did not rain on us very much and it was just great. When we got home we found out that it had really come a big rain here. We left Paxton at 6 Am and got the Birmingham at 9:30 A M. We stopped at Burger King and changed clothes and went on to the temple. It was such a pleasure to go and have a great spiritual day just so relaxed and wonderful. Did not have to worry about anything. Everyone there could take care of themselves.Brandon Blocker went with us and did some of his Family work and I tried to help him with it but since I was a escort I would not have time to do any of it for him. But he got it done anyway.

Today has been one rainy day. We got about 31/2 inches of rain. We have been shut up in the house all day long.

I have a trip to the temple planned for Wednesday. I sure hope that everything goes good for that one. Sister Synder if going for her first time and I will be her escort. I guess we will have a car full. Sister Miller, Sister Synder,Myself, Prestident Coleman, Brother Blocker, and Jessica Fickett. I have not been in a long time so I hope I can remember everything. I love to go but it is hard for me to leave Charles for the whole day. Michelle has to go to work so she will be leaving at 3 o'clock.

I have some rotessary chicken and peach cobbler for dinner and I am ready to eat it. I have been ironing all day so I am tired of that. I now have to do my Relief Society lesson for tomorrow. I will be glad when I can get some counslor. I need some help

Have had a very busy week. It was good but busy. Sunday was Mother's Day and I heard from all the kids. Marla and Michelle had dinner with me. I also got a message from Elder Weight who served his mission here in 1990 and 1991. He was coming to Pensacola and wanted me to come down and meet him and have dinner with him. So Michelle and I left here about 7 o'clock and went to Pensacola and had dinner with him. It was such fun to see him after all these year. He was such a wonderful person when he was here and I am sure that he still is. He says that he wants to come back and bring his wife and childern to visit. That would be fun.


Wed morning I took Michelle to the doctor and went to the grocery store. That took until noon, so I had to hurry home and get ready again to go. On Wed night we had a Book Mornon class and that last for a hour and half but it was good. Sister Miller teaches it and she is so smart. I sometimes think that she knows every thing about the church but she says no.

On Thursday we had a metting in Niceville at 7 o'clock and had to pick up Michelle, Joseph, Hazel, Brandon, and Christine. So we had a car full and spent 2 hours in a meeting. I enjoyed mine and I think Michelle did also. But Joseph and Brandon did not need to go so they were a little put out with President Coleman. I think he needs to really start asking questions about who needs to be there.

Then on Friday we were going to plant some more garden but the Chandlers and Akins did not make it. I guess we will do that on Monday. I have company coming next week end and the next week end is Branch Conference. I also have a trip to make to the Temple in Birmingham on the 29th Chris want me to be her Escort. So I guess I will be busy for the next two weeks. I have really got to find some time and decide what to do about Relief Society. I have not had time to pray about anything and I have been to busy to do anything with it. I should not feel that way for I am sure that the Lord is never to busy to here me when I pray.

Got a email from Elder Weight yesterday. He will be in Pensacola on the 12th and 13th of May. I sure hope that I can get Michelle to go with me there to visit with him for a little while. That woud be so much fun I think. To see him after all these years. I have not see him since shortly after Letha and Steve married. He came one time to see me while I was visiting her. That was before he married. he is now 38 years old.

Tomarrow is Mother's Day. I will be teaching Primary. Boy does that bring back memories. I have everything ready just hope that the kids will enjoy it. I miss my Mother so much on days like that. I want to go to the cemetery and put some flowers over there for her, Grandma and Mae. If I can find the time today. We will all get togeather tomarrow for dinner. Hope Doug, Jolyn and the Kids will come also.

We put up and new air conditioner yesterday. I was really tired and my back hurt so bad when we finished. We put it in the top window instead of the lower one and it sure makes a difference in the cooling. I think I will like it much more.

Charles is feeling much better since we turned the air on. He sure was having a lot of trouble with being able to breath. Thank you Father in Heaven for lettin me know that. I will try hard to remember that one next year.

Went to Dotha, Al. today to get a new window air conditioner. Had a good day just took most of the day. We came back by the cemetary where Mrs. Roddenberry is baried then came on down to where Mrs. Clara is barried and Mrs Peoples. ( Nannie) Put some flowers out for all of them. Now I have to get over to Cotton Cemetary and put some on Grannie, Mama and Annie Mae. Then in a couple of weeks it will be Carols birthday so I will have to go back and put some on her grave. I will be tired of cemetaries after that one. I was going to put some on Mrs. Youngs but Michelle said not to.

I am tired tonight and I do not know why, I guess because I have been on my feet all day and I can't take that any more. I don't know how I use to do all I did. anyway I will get over it maybe by in the morning. I want to fix dinner on Sunday. Joseph wants to surprise Michelle with a fish fry. He has called and got her off from work and she doesn't know that yet. Anyway maybe we can have a great dinner for Robert, Audra and Joshua. Love those kids and feel so bad for them.