Had a good day except Charles fell a couple of days ago and he is so sore that I had to tend to all the chickens for him. I don't know what I am going to do with him if he do't stop climbing a ladder. He took quite a fall but did not break anything.

I found a bloom on my Pelican plant this morning. Boy is that thing beautiful. I am trying to root one so I can have a back up one. So far I have not been able to do that. I also put up 4 quart and 1 pint of peaches off out tree today. If I had not waited so long I could have gotten more but was so busy I forgot about them. I picked a qallon of blueberries from my bushes and I have put up 9 Quarts of figs off our tree. I have had a busy summer and it is not over yet. My lawn mower is on thr fritz so my yard looks awful. I hope to get it going soon and get the yard cut. I am almost afraid to go out for snakes. We have killed 3 out there already.

I learned something new today. I learned how to submit something to the Branch Calendar. I was surprised that it was so easy. I had never looked at it to see if I could until today. I may be old but I can learn new things. How about that one? It has rained so much for the last few days. We got 2 1/4 inches yesterday and I bet it rained another 2 or 3 inches today. I really did not want it to rain so much because the pecans want make anything if that keeps up. I was looking at them today and there a lot of them if they don't fall off.

President Coleman called me today and said the Sister Fishers Youngest son Ryan Clark got injured in a boating accident yesterday. He is in critical condition. I sure hope that he get better.

Marla is home and tired because she has to work so hard. I wish that she could get her a Job that would not require her to have to do so much manual labor. She really has a hard time with it. There is no way I can let her stop and me keep her up though. Shw will just have to keep trying. She has the cutest little dog and he loves her so much. He is so small that its hard for me to take him out. I am afraid he will get away from me. and I can't get him back.

Michelle started to work and had to turn around and come back up to 0602 because there was a huge tree across the highway 331. It went all the way across. We had had some bad wind but I did not think it was that bad. Anyway thank goodness it was before she had to go to work.

I have had a busy week as always. Joshua was pretty sick a couple of nights ago. He was at the Emergency Room about all night I guess. Michelle left work and went over there to be with him. She did not get home until 5:30 in the morning. I did not get any sleep hardly because I was not with her. I sat here and worried. They finally let him go home about 3:30 and she called me and I went to bed and went to sleep but was up again at 6:30 for the day. I am sure glad I have all my kids grown and now I wish some times that I had the Grand Kids grown. It is so hard not to have them here so we know what is going on with them. They are still so young and tender. I know that Heavenly Father will take care of them but I so want to be there and know what is going on. I worry about all of them but those 3 are so alone. I do not believe that Stacy knows how to take care of them. It is now 11:45 and I can not sleep because Audra called me at 10:00 and I don't know why. I could not get to the phone before she hung up So its worry time again.

Things are going good with Marla here I think. She seems to be able to handle everything okay. She and I cleaned out the trailer for Charles today. We had all the dishes from the travel trailer in there and so we put them all up in the barn. She is a lot of help to me. She does the dishes almost every time we eat. I think she loves to eat grits and eggs with us when she if off. Charles seems to enjoy having her here also. She goes to the Pond with him all the time to keep him from being by himself.

Charles has been having a hard time with his health lately. He is having some trouble with his heart. I have noticed that he is having to take a lot of nitro tablets. I don't know what the heart doctor wil say about that. I will be gone when he goes back unless I call and change the appointment. I may do that.

I have this wonderful friend who has lung cancer. She is the strongest person I know. I have never seen anyone who has tried so hard to beat this other than maybe Annie Mae. I am not sure that if this happened to me I could hold out like they have and did. Peggy has been such an insperation to me. She would get up and leave home at at 6:30 on Sunday Morning to be at church in Paxton because her husband was the Branch President. He had a Birthday on Sunday the 19th She gave him a surprise party and I was one of the few that got invited. I had a really good time. They live in Crestview so I did not get home until 8:30. Today is George's Birthday. I called him this morning and talked to him for a minute.

I have to get back outside to cutting grass. It is only 7:30 and I have about half of the push mowing done. It gets to hot if you wait very long. But I had to come in and get me something to drink. Charles is still in the bed and Marla went to work to see if they would let her work. She has got the shingles all over her now. I am not sure that it is the shingles. I have never seen them look like that. I wish she could get herself well enough she did not have to go to the doctor so much. I don't think its good to do that.

Oh what a day. I recieved a invitation from Sister Jones for her wedding. She sure turned out to be a beautiful woman. I wish I could go but that aint going to happen. I am about to lose my mind because Marla is here all the time. She has the shingles and is off from work. Now she is under foot all day long. I don't know how long I can stand for her to be here. I know she wants to help but she doesn't know how I do things so it bothers me. She has got that little dog and I really don't like dogs in the house. I wish I did not feel liek this but I can't help it. I know she is not still clean so it really makes me feel helpless. I am ready for a break and it has only been 2 days.

I am just very tired and need a week of rest with nothing or anyone to bother me. I have Carlie's blanket done and Bailey's is half done. Got to get it finished so I can take it with me to Utah in October. Shari came by and visited for a while today and I really enjoyed her visit. I wish she could have stayed longer. I love to talk to her. She is such a wonderful person and makes me feel so good. Love Shari

Today has been busy so for me I have been up since 5:30 AM I forgot to turn the sprinklers off last night so the flower beds got watered very good for a change. I want be able to pay the water bill next month but at least my flowers will live a little while longer.

Marla has gotten moved in and hopefully got ever thing she needs to live here. I have a house full and don't know what to do with all this stuff I had before. I hope we can make it work until she gets her own place. I have worried about her for months so now she is here and maybe I can check on her more often. I know she needs to be here so she will have someone to talk to. Marla also has the shingles. I know how bad they can bother you so I hope the doctor has given her something that will make them get well.

I have a meeting with the Relief Society Presidency at one so I have to get up from here and get myself busy and get ready to go. I have the worst sinus draniage I have ever had. I sure hope it does not make me sick again.

I love my grandchildren so very much and most of them are about to grow up on me. Kayla is 20 and Sarah is 18 Rober is 16 almost. The youngest one will be eight in October. My goodness they will be grown before I know it. Love them all. Heath is so growup that I can't get him to come to see me any more.

Went to dinner with Daniel and Kitty tonight. Had a great time. Came home and went to bed and was up at 1:30 AM and could not sleep any more. Don't know what I am going to do about not being able to sleep. I have so much running around in my mind that I can't stop it from thinking so I can sleep.

Jolyn came by and picked some peas while we were gone. I don't think she got very many but maybe she got enough for them to have a mess or two. Doug has a terrible cough and I wish he could find something to do it some good. I wish more that he would stop smoking.

Marla moved in the house with us yesterday. I hope that will work out okay. Not sure right now. She had took something yesterday and she was acting funny last night. I only hope this does not turn out to be a disaster. I love her very much and I wish she could fix her life so she was back to her old self. I know that Father in Heaven can do it if she would only let him. She has to want it and work with him for it to happen.

Today we went to the Pulmonary Doctor. He told us about the same thing the heart doctor told us on Monday. We just have to stay in out of the heat and wear the oxgyen all the time now. We then went to Ryans to dinner with Joseph and the Kids. Today was Audra Mae's birthday. She turned 14 years old. I can not believe that she is that old. Such a sweet and smart young lady. Love her so much. She had Jessica Fickett over to spend the night for her birthday. They sure seem to have hit it off quite well. I hope that it will help Jessica to come to Church more. She is such a cute girl. She has grown so much. She is as big as a 15 year old young lady.

I got my tickets tonight to go to Utah in October. I just hope that Charles will stay healthy enough for me to go. I have wanted to go to Conference all my life and I hope that it will be okay and Charles' will stay healthy enough for me to go. I have it planned to go to conference, and Carlie's Birthday and baptism. I hope to get their blankets done before I go so I want have to pay to ship them out there.

Today we went to the Heart Doctor. He gave us some news not unexpected but not what we wanted to hear. Chalres is not a candidate for bypass surgery again. He also refused to do a catheration. Because he had a stroke after the last one. I can understand why but I sure wish he could see his way clear to do it. Anyway I guess I will have to live with what time I have left with him.

We went by to see Miss Effie and Uncle Bill Akins. Had a wonderful visit with them. Brought home a box full of flowers that I had to plant. Got that done and went to the pond and found 15 baby geniue. Had to catch all of them and put them in a box. I am afraid that I will loose all of them because they got wet and cool. Maybe they can make it. I covered them and put a light on them. Maybe they will be okay through the night;

Today I have felt really bad. I did not go to Church today. My back is killing me and I have to get up early in the morning to take Charles to the heart doctor. He got up not felling well himself. His heart was acting up and he was weak. He is in his chair now taking a nap. I have really been worried about him. I am afraid that I am going to loose him before I am ready. But I do have the Lord to lean on if I can but remember to do that. I only wish I had had more time with him. I believe I could have made a difference in his life. But Heavenly Father will have to change him now for I have done all I can. I love him and wish I could make him see the imprtance of an Eternal Family. But I guess I can take care of that after he is gone. I wanted to know the joy of having that family but I guess that is not to be. I love my Father in Heaven and pray that I can please him with my actions.

Had a day that I did almost nothing. It was great. I got up at 7:00 and watered grass all day. I sure wish it would rain but so far nothing. We have had a couple of sprinkles but nothing to do any good. I know that the Lord knows what is best but I sure hate to see all those peas and watermelons go to waste. They have to have a little water to make it work.

We went to see Aunt Eva Dell today. She sure looks old and does not get around good at all. She was sitting in her chair sleeping when we got there. Left there and went up to visit Terry and Janet. Jordyn had Gastric by pass surgery on Monday and we went up to check on him. He sure has gotten to be a big boy. Maybe he can get it off and keep it off.

I want be able to pay my water bill this month. I have had to water flowers every day. It sure takes a lot of water to do that. I hope that Heavenly Father soon has a little pitty on me and will let it rain. I could pick some more peas if it would do that. Oh well I guess I don't need them anyway. I sure don't need to have to pick them. Of course I could sell them if I could get them picked.

Today is July 1. I went to see the doctor yesterday. I have had a sinus thing going on for weeks. Finally had to give in a go see the doctor. He gave me a shot and a hand full of pills. I sure wish I could get to feeling better easily. It seems I have to always have the hard mess to get rid of. I think most of my problem is the fact that I have been so worried about Charles. I wish that Life did not have to be so hard. I know the Lord loves me but I sure have a hard time some times trying to get through it. I do have my share of trials. But we are to have trials in all things and I am so blessed with so many things.


The weather is so hot and dry that I sure wish that we could get a good rain. I have some new peas and watermelons that sure need some rain. It rained a few minutes day before yesterday but nothing since. It was only enough to dampen the top so it did not help except to cool it down a little. The tempeture has been up to 100 for over a week now. It is so hot.

Michelle has gone to girls camp with Audra this week. I hope she is having a good time. She works so hard and does not have time to do anything with her kids. They need her so bad. I sure wish I had the energy to do more for her. Marla will be moving in on Friday the 3rd. I sure hope this will make things good for her and she can get the building for the apartment like she wants.

I am so gretful to my Father in Heaven that He has provided me with such a wonderful life. I love Him so very much. He is such a Wonderful Father to me. I only wish that I could serve Him better in all my life. I try but I come short of the mark an awful lot. I know he will forgive me but I wish that I could do better. He is always there for me and I wsih that I could always do the same for him. But I feel that I fall short a lot. I hope that my Children and Grandchildren do a better job than me.