I get farther and farther apart doing my job of writing. I have so much going on that I can't seem to find the time to sit down and do this. I want to keep up with it but just don't seem to be able to. We have had a good week except Charles has some cold and he is having a hard time finding air. His blood sugar has been high for a week now and I guess I will have to take him back to see the doctor. I was hoping he would get better by himself but it doesn't look like that is happening. I have my tickets to go to Utah and 2 tickets for conference so I am excited to go out there. I have always wanted to go to conference and this is the first time I have had a chance to go. I hope it will all work out. I will get to see my youngest granddaughter baptised and see conference. Boy what a treat. I bought about 80 pounds of pork on Friday so I have to make sausage again. I am not out of sausage but I have to take care of the meat so here we go and I have to buy it when it is on sale. I wish I could afford to buy it at any time but that ain't going happen.

Charles bought me a new lawn mower on Friday. I want be able to buy much of anything now. That thing cost a lot of money. I sure hope it last better than all the other ones we bought. I will try to get a picture of it and put in on here before long. I am so grateful for all that I have the Lord has really blessed me with all the needs of my life. Thank you Father in Heaven.

Today has been a lazy day. I was suppose to get up early and go to Milton to Elisha's Dedication but he got sick so they had to postpone it until a later date. So I have just sat around all day. I got up and fixed breakfast and messed around and crochet all day until I had to get up and get ready to go to Crestview with Hazel Adams to get her Patriartical Blessing. I so lazy that I did not even get up and go to church this morning. I have not done that in a long time. But I did watch BYU tv all day. So I had better church anyway. I saw the choir and ever thing. It was really good. I had a good ride with Hazel to Crestview. We had a good talk. Then I had a chance to talk to Diane about Kenny. She said she had been up to see him yesterday. I know that Bonita was please to see them. She had called me and ask who she could get to help her with getting Kenny in Church. Love that boy and sure wish I knew what to do for him.

I work hard in the Yard on Friday so hard that I blew up the Lawn Mower. I mean it blew. I am going to had to buy a new motor for it now. But I was tired of putting oil in it every time I cranked it. So maybe when I get it fixed this time it will be a much better mower. I love to cut grass. I have a lot to cut to. l

Yesterday was Michael's Birthday. I did not get to talk to him but called Cindy and talked to her. She said he was home opening his cards when she left. I would have loved to talk to him but I cant reach him by phone so I just have to talk to Cindy whom I love very much. They are wonderful kids and I wish I could spend more time with them.

Today has been a lazy day. I really have not done any thing much. I fixed breakfast and dinner and that is about all that I have done.I had company this morning and again this afternoon. President and Sister Moore came up this morning and Gene Looman came by this afternoon. He has messed up his computer and thought he could fix it if he had wireless Internet. But like me he doesn't know enough about it so he did not get it fixed.

We had steak fingers and baked sweet potatoes for dinner. It was very good and I am stuffed now. Chuck came over this evening and got himself some watermelons. He stayed for a little while and went back to Jacks. I wish I could have the time to go over and spend some time with them. I miss all the fun things we use to do. I love my brothers and I wish that we lived closer together. They are really good to me. I love all my family and wish we all lived close enough that we could get together more often. I would love to have some pictures of all of us. I guess I will never be able to get another Family picture.

Today is my Michelle's Birthday. Lordly I am getting old. I wish I could make life so it would be better for her. She has had a bad day I am sure. I wish that Josephs kids would do like they should so she would not have to worry about them. I have had a busy day. Miss Effie and Uncle Bill, Don and his Wife came by and got some watermelons and I tried to clean the house before they got here. Of course I did not make it. My house stays a mess all the time. I have to much to do and I don't have time to clean house. I did have a good day. I caught 7 baby guineas and put them in the box with their Mother. So I hope I can raise them. They are so dang cute. I just love to find them and raise them up. They get loud when they get grown but I still love to raise them.

Betty Jo called me this morning. I guess she will be going home next Tuesday. She has been at Michelle's for 5 weeks. Michelle had to have some surgery. But all is well now.

Boy has it rained today. Must have been another 3 inches. I took Audra and Joshua to Defuniak today. I had a really swell time even if it did rain. We got Audra a pair of shoes. That Child has such a little foot that you can find shoes for her. We went to the Shoe Store found her some on sail for 8 dollars. I was shocked. They are cute. They had a flower on the top and a small heel,. Se is so short she needs something to help her out some.

Joseph's Son Cameron has got himself in a mess. He is in the hospital and tested positive for a bunch of drugs. Not sure what is going to happen. He also may have to have some surgery.

I am so sleepy. I got up at 4 this morning to iron. Thank goodness I did not have but 6 pairs of pants for Charles with 6 shirts. So I was done by 7 this morning but did not get to take a nap like I planned. I have a new batch of baby gunies that hatched today. I will take them off tomarrow and put them in a box. Can't wait to see them run around. They are so dang cute.

Been really busy. Charles fell off a ladder several days ago. He did not break anything but he sure has felt bad ever since he fell. I took him to the doctor and they did not find anything other than his body was trying to tell him he must slow down some. I have really been worried about him.

Things have been good since Marla moved in. She is a lot of help to me. I can start doing the laundry and she will finish it. I cut grass for 3 days trying to get it done. I had not been able to do it all year because the lawn mower was messed up but I finally go it all done. I did not get all the trim work but it still looks very good compared to what it did look like. I needed to turn the horses in and let them eat it but they would have eat my flowers and I have to much money in them.

I have two tickets to go to conference if nothing happens. I have the plane tickets to get there and the tickets to see it if Charles will stay well so I can go. I was called to be the Primary President on August 9. 2009. It has been a long time since I worked in the Primary. I hope that I can do a good job and get Megan back going to Church. I wish that the Branch would grow so we could have a lot of Primary and Relief Society. I love my Father in Heaven and wish that everyone could feel the way I do. I love my children and want what is best for them. I wish they knew just how much I do love them. Can't believe that I would have been married 48 years today if I had stayed married to my Childrens father. But of well I have a wonderful husband now that I have had almost 10 wonderful years. he is very good to me.

I feel really bad today. I have had Ryan Clark Fisher on my mind all day long. I cna't help but wonder what is happening with him. His Mother loved him so much and I am sure glad that she is gone and did not have to go through this with him. Still do not know what happened to him all I know is that they found him in the water with all the vital organs full of water. Don't know if some one hit him or if he fell in the water. I know I am not making much sense out of this but he is Stella Fishers youngest son. He has no brain waves going on much and they are really worried that he is brain dead. Life can really deal some hard blows sometimes.

I have had Mama Weaver on my mind a lot today. I wish I could see her and Mother and talk to them. I miss them both so very much. I don't have any one that I can tell my troubles to any more. Sherri has moved away and I never know when she is busy and I hate to call her. I guess I will just have to stay busy more and not think about it. Eva Dell called me today and I had a good talk with her. But I can't really talk to her about things that are troubling me.

Marla is home from work. I guess she had a fair day. I know its hard for her. That is hard work. But swhe loves it and I did also. The only reward you get is know that the Lord loves you for what you are doing for all those old folks. The pay is not very much. They do need someone to love them.