I am leaving on a jet plane. Hurray. I am going to Utah and spend 2 weeks with my girls. I get to go to conference for the first time in my life. It is something that I have always wanted to do and now I have the chance. I do hope that I want be to much trouble for the girls. I know they have a life and I sure do not want to take them away from things they want and need to do. Melissa has a volley ball and Letha has work. I just know that I love them and want to spend some quality time with them and my grandchildren. I know that I want be around for to many more years so I just need to let them know how much I love them and pray for them that they can have a wonderful life. I only wish for them better than what I had. I Pray that none of them ever have to face the things that I had to face. I worry so much that they want know how to take care of their family if things get really hard. I know that the Lord will bless them if they will stay close to him and ask for those blessing. I wish I had the money to help them with all the things that they need. and some of what they want.

I went to the Relief Society Conference last night. Oh what a powerful meeting that was. I love to hear Sister Beck and President Eyring. What a wonderful man he must be. I believe I could sit and listen to him all day. I did get tired and had to stand up for awhile but that was because I was going to have to drive back from Ft. Walton. Was a long drive there and we had to be there at 6 we had a musical program before the conference. One of the Sisters in Crestview plays the violin and what a job she does. She is the Bishop's wife in the 2nd ward. He is the new doctor in town. Such a cute couple, their name is Roberts. She is expecting their 5th child. She looks so young. She played while she was at BYU and won lots of awards. I should be so lucky.

This may be the last time I get to post anything for two weeks. I am going to Utah and visit the girls and go to conference. I cant wait to see my girls. I wish there was some way I could let them know how very much I love all of them. My life has always been center around my children and they have been my life. Next to My Father in Heaven there is nothing I love more. I wish that they lived close enough that I could see them more often but that was their choose. They are good girls and I am very proud of them as well as all my children. Michael makes me so proud that I could pop with all his talent. Such beautiful things he makes.

Good morning, Today had already been a long day. I was up at 5:00 AM Had cramps in my legs so bad I could not sleep. As soon as the daylight came I was outside trimming the yard that I cut yesterday. I got that all done and was back in the house by 8 AM. Now I am hot and tired. Bit I will do no more today. I have a meeting in Ft. Walton Beach this evening. I will be going to the Relief Society Conference meeting. We are suppose to have a music presentation before it starts with a light meal. If there is food then I will be there. I have been blessed with some beautiful flowers this year some I have never seen before. I only wish I could keep them from freezing this winter. They sure cost me a arm and leg to replace. Charles has really been having a hard time finding air. I am not so sure that I need to go off and leave him but I want to go so bad. All I can do is pray that he will be okay until I get back. He tells me he will be fine. I am very excited to go to conference. I will also get to see the Brackins, Glads, and some of the girls while I am out there. I only wish I could see them all. Maybe I will also get to see the Andreasons. Anyway this is a picture of my Star Cactus.

Went to church this morning. No one was there. We only had 7 members from our branch. We had the stake high council and his family which made it be 12. I am so afraid that they are going to close this branch. Just can't get Michelle to go. No one seems to be interested in going any more. I love Father in Heaven and I wish I could get everyone to Love him that way. I would do anything for him, but it is hard when everything you say or do is misinterpreted. I wish I could go some place else sometimes. It is so hard to be the only one that will do anything. I am sure they have problems also but we need to remember that Heavenly Father died for us so we could live with him again if we do what we should. I try very hard but fail so I am thankful that he is a forgiving Father in Heaven. Today is a bad day for me. I am hurting so bad in my back. I can't hardly sit and sure can't stand.

Oh my goodness. I am so far behind. I have been sick, and Charles has been sick. We have had company. Richard Young (my nephew) and his family have been here and spent a couple of days and Charles's friend Ronnie and wife Laura came and spent a day with us. We had to buy and new lawn mower and so I have been cutting grass. (love that) The new mower is great. I can cut this big yard in 3 hours. Sure wish I had bought this a long time ago. The leaves are falling and everything is getting ready to go to sleep for the winter. I just hope that everything will come back next spring. I love my yard and it sure looks beautiful now except for the leaves.
I had hoped to get a new flower house before winter but did not make it so I will have to make do again with what I have. Oh well that is better than some people have. I should not complain the Lord has so richly blessed me with a great family. I am so grateful that Jordyn is through her surgery and doing okay. I hate that she has to hurt like she does but at least she will be better soon. I love my girls so very much. I am leaving on Oct first to go out there to visit them and go to conference. Can't wait. I have always wanted to do that so I finally get to go. I am excited to go and be in a room with a prophet of the Lord in the same room. Life is good and I love to live it most of the time. I only pray that Charles will be okay while I am gone.