I have a terrible week. I had heartburn so bad all week that I thought I wanted to die. Any way maybe I have gotten it better. I am not hurting this morning anyway. I tired 5 lap blankets while I was hurting. We are doing them for the Nursing Home. I have enjoyed doing that. I have tried togeather up the leaves out of the yard but can't hold out to do many of them at a time. I don't know how I will ever get all of them up. Plus the pecan are ready to pick up. My back just will not let me do all that I need to get done.

I have to go to Andalusia this morning with Charles to court. He has a small claims case against Wacovia Bank for the CD that they will not give him his money for. I don't know how that is going to work out. I will just have to wait and see.I am so sick of banks lately that I am about ready to close all my accounts and put my money in my back pocket. Someone had fun on my First National Bank account and spent 750.00 dollars of my money and I had to fight to get that back. I don't know what this world is coming to.

Jack will have surgery again in the morning. He now has a rip in his intestine form the last surgery. I hope this one will get him all well and he doesn't have to have any more. We have done everything to keep them from giving him morphine so I hope we got that all covered. He goes nuts when they give it to him.

Today I can't hardly do anything, my back hurts so bad and my thumb want work. I tried sleeping in my brace on the thumb but it did not help much. I sure wish I knew what was wrong with it put so far I have not gotten anyone to tell me what is wrong.

I have a funeral to go to today. It is Brother Bob Robarbs. He fell off his riding lawn mower and broke his neck. They did surgery on him and he would be paralyzed from the neck down. Then they unplugged him from the machine and he died. I know that had to be hard for Barbara to do. She loved him so much. They went every where together. I sure hope I don't ever have to make that kind of decision. I am so thankful that I have the gospel in my life. I don't know what I would do if I did not know the things I know. I am grateful to Father in Heaven for giving his Son to die for us. I only wish that I and everyone else would learn to appreciate this and learn to love him and keep his Commandments. I have a testimony of this and I am so grateful for that. I pray that I can live my life so that I can go and be with my Father and Mother. I miss them so very much and Love them with all my heart. I pray that I never did anything to hurt them and that when they died they knew that I loved them with all my heart.

I have been working on my yard. I have leaves all over and they are hard to get up. I wish I could keep it looking like it does in the summer. I love it when its all clean and green I have to much to do. I have to pick up pecans and and rack the leaves and try to cut grass again. It got out of hand while I was in Utah. Sometimes I wish I could go back and stay out there.

I have been busy since I got home from Utah trying to catch things up that did not get done. I have a hard time doing all that needs to get done because I can only think about all the things I saw and did while I was out there. I see Presidents Hinkley's headstone and his cane laying there and I just want to sit down and cry. He was such a good man and a Wonderful leader that it makes it hard for me to realize that he is gone. I guess it took seeing all that to make me know that he is gone.

Charles has been really sick for the last few days. Not sure what is wrong with him but he says he is very weak and can't hardly get up and down. He managed to get on the tractor yesterday and I had to go help him pull up the post. He could not get down and wrap the chain around the post to pull it. Now I have a serious back ache because I started picking up pecans. I have to get that done and clean the leaves from my yard. It is a mess but I can only do one thing at a time.

Michelle is going to work a double today. She came home at 11:30 P.M. and is going back at 7:00 A.M. and work until 11:00P.M. She will be dead on her feet. But I guess she will have her double pulled and want have one for some time again. I know it will be hard for her to catch up her sleep though. She is one that can't do without her sleep. She sleeps all the time if nothing is bothering her. Wish I could sleep some. I have been up since 4:30 this morning. My Legs were cramping so bad that I could not sleep. Maybe one day.

I love my Father in Heaven and I know that he loves me. I have to many things that are good in my life for him not to love me. I thank him daily for all that he does for me. I am so grateful that I know the things I know and that I can thank him. Life is wonderful most of the time.

I have the family invitations done and ready to mail. I am so glad that I have that done now I can start on next years. It takes me a year to finish them. I just get lazy and don't do anything with them until I run out of time. hope everyone comes and has a good time.

I have had a wonderful visit with Letha and Melissa. While there I had a visit with the Andreason's, the Glads and Bracken's. I also had the most wonderful opportunity to attend conference. What a great and glorious opportunity that was. To be in the room when the humble and wonderful Prophet came into the room and to see everyone in that room stand and be very silent. What powerful messages they all had to give us. I wish that we could have some of that happen down here so that we did not have to receive it from television. I am still very grateful that when can get it from television. I don't know what would happen if we did not have the chance to listen to the prophet on television.

I am so very proud of my children. They are such good kids and have done very good for themselves. They all have such beautiful children and they are such sweet kids. I would love to bring them home with me for a vacation. Maybe I could have the chance to repay them for the kindness that showed me while I was visiting with them. They all treated me with such respect. I was so very impressed with them. I love them all so very much.

I went to the Book store while in Utah and bought myself some new books and videos. Got some new temple garments while there. Got a new supply of books and clothes. I love to go and visit but am always glad to come home also. Charles was very anxious for me to come home. I think that he realized that he really needs me here to help him take care of himself. He was so cute about the whole thing though. He didn't want me to know how bad he wanted me to come home.

Even Jack came by yesterday to see about me and to tell me that he had scheduled his surgery for November the 3rd. He has always said I don't have to be there but he came by to make sure that I knew when it was going to be. Big boy is not so big when it comes to being alone for scary times. I love him so very much. He is a great brother.

I also got to spend a couple of nights with my wonderful son. One before I went to Utah and one after I came home. I have such a good time with them. They are such wonderful children. My grandson is such an great young man. I can't believe how much he does for his Mom and Dad and what a special young man he has turned out to be. Mike has been a wonderful Father for him. I am so grateful that he has been such a great Dad. He loves to take him hunting and fishing and all kinds of fun things to do. I hope that they can always have that kind of relationship. That is what Heavenly Father would want us to to. To teach our children how to have fun and how to work to take care of ourselves and a bonus how to take care of our parents when they get older. Cindy has such a love for people. She amazes me at how kind she is.

I am leaving on a jet plane. Hurray. I am going to Utah and spend 2 weeks with my girls. I get to go to conference for the first time in my life. It is something that I have always wanted to do and now I have the chance. I do hope that I want be to much trouble for the girls. I know they have a life and I sure do not want to take them away from things they want and need to do. Melissa has a volley ball and Letha has work. I just know that I love them and want to spend some quality time with them and my grandchildren. I know that I want be around for to many more years so I just need to let them know how much I love them and pray for them that they can have a wonderful life. I only wish for them better than what I had. I Pray that none of them ever have to face the things that I had to face. I worry so much that they want know how to take care of their family if things get really hard. I know that the Lord will bless them if they will stay close to him and ask for those blessing. I wish I had the money to help them with all the things that they need. and some of what they want.

I went to the Relief Society Conference last night. Oh what a powerful meeting that was. I love to hear Sister Beck and President Eyring. What a wonderful man he must be. I believe I could sit and listen to him all day. I did get tired and had to stand up for awhile but that was because I was going to have to drive back from Ft. Walton. Was a long drive there and we had to be there at 6 we had a musical program before the conference. One of the Sisters in Crestview plays the violin and what a job she does. She is the Bishop's wife in the 2nd ward. He is the new doctor in town. Such a cute couple, their name is Roberts. She is expecting their 5th child. She looks so young. She played while she was at BYU and won lots of awards. I should be so lucky.

This may be the last time I get to post anything for two weeks. I am going to Utah and visit the girls and go to conference. I cant wait to see my girls. I wish there was some way I could let them know how very much I love all of them. My life has always been center around my children and they have been my life. Next to My Father in Heaven there is nothing I love more. I wish that they lived close enough that I could see them more often but that was their choose. They are good girls and I am very proud of them as well as all my children. Michael makes me so proud that I could pop with all his talent. Such beautiful things he makes.

Good morning, Today had already been a long day. I was up at 5:00 AM Had cramps in my legs so bad I could not sleep. As soon as the daylight came I was outside trimming the yard that I cut yesterday. I got that all done and was back in the house by 8 AM. Now I am hot and tired. Bit I will do no more today. I have a meeting in Ft. Walton Beach this evening. I will be going to the Relief Society Conference meeting. We are suppose to have a music presentation before it starts with a light meal. If there is food then I will be there. I have been blessed with some beautiful flowers this year some I have never seen before. I only wish I could keep them from freezing this winter. They sure cost me a arm and leg to replace. Charles has really been having a hard time finding air. I am not so sure that I need to go off and leave him but I want to go so bad. All I can do is pray that he will be okay until I get back. He tells me he will be fine. I am very excited to go to conference. I will also get to see the Brackins, Glads, and some of the girls while I am out there. I only wish I could see them all. Maybe I will also get to see the Andreasons. Anyway this is a picture of my Star Cactus.