I am leaving on a jet plane. Hurray. I am going to Utah and spend 2 weeks with my girls. I get to go to conference for the first time in my life. It is something that I have always wanted to do and now I have the chance. I do hope that I want be to much trouble for the girls. I know they have a life and I sure do not want to take them away from things they want and need to do. Melissa has a volley ball and Letha has work. I just know that I love them and want to spend some quality time with them and my grandchildren. I know that I want be around for to many more years so I just need to let them know how much I love them and pray for them that they can have a wonderful life. I only wish for them better than what I had. I Pray that none of them ever have to face the things that I had to face. I worry so much that they want know how to take care of their family if things get really hard. I know that the Lord will bless them if they will stay close to him and ask for those blessing. I wish I had the money to help them with all the things that they need. and some of what they want.

I went to the Relief Society Conference last night. Oh what a powerful meeting that was. I love to hear Sister Beck and President Eyring. What a wonderful man he must be. I believe I could sit and listen to him all day. I did get tired and had to stand up for awhile but that was because I was going to have to drive back from Ft. Walton. Was a long drive there and we had to be there at 6 we had a musical program before the conference. One of the Sisters in Crestview plays the violin and what a job she does. She is the Bishop's wife in the 2nd ward. He is the new doctor in town. Such a cute couple, their name is Roberts. She is expecting their 5th child. She looks so young. She played while she was at BYU and won lots of awards. I should be so lucky.

This may be the last time I get to post anything for two weeks. I am going to Utah and visit the girls and go to conference. I cant wait to see my girls. I wish there was some way I could let them know how very much I love all of them. My life has always been center around my children and they have been my life. Next to My Father in Heaven there is nothing I love more. I wish that they lived close enough that I could see them more often but that was their choose. They are good girls and I am very proud of them as well as all my children. Michael makes me so proud that I could pop with all his talent. Such beautiful things he makes.

Good morning, Today had already been a long day. I was up at 5:00 AM Had cramps in my legs so bad I could not sleep. As soon as the daylight came I was outside trimming the yard that I cut yesterday. I got that all done and was back in the house by 8 AM. Now I am hot and tired. Bit I will do no more today. I have a meeting in Ft. Walton Beach this evening. I will be going to the Relief Society Conference meeting. We are suppose to have a music presentation before it starts with a light meal. If there is food then I will be there. I have been blessed with some beautiful flowers this year some I have never seen before. I only wish I could keep them from freezing this winter. They sure cost me a arm and leg to replace. Charles has really been having a hard time finding air. I am not so sure that I need to go off and leave him but I want to go so bad. All I can do is pray that he will be okay until I get back. He tells me he will be fine. I am very excited to go to conference. I will also get to see the Brackins, Glads, and some of the girls while I am out there. I only wish I could see them all. Maybe I will also get to see the Andreasons. Anyway this is a picture of my Star Cactus.

Went to church this morning. No one was there. We only had 7 members from our branch. We had the stake high council and his family which made it be 12. I am so afraid that they are going to close this branch. Just can't get Michelle to go. No one seems to be interested in going any more. I love Father in Heaven and I wish I could get everyone to Love him that way. I would do anything for him, but it is hard when everything you say or do is misinterpreted. I wish I could go some place else sometimes. It is so hard to be the only one that will do anything. I am sure they have problems also but we need to remember that Heavenly Father died for us so we could live with him again if we do what we should. I try very hard but fail so I am thankful that he is a forgiving Father in Heaven. Today is a bad day for me. I am hurting so bad in my back. I can't hardly sit and sure can't stand.

Oh my goodness. I am so far behind. I have been sick, and Charles has been sick. We have had company. Richard Young (my nephew) and his family have been here and spent a couple of days and Charles's friend Ronnie and wife Laura came and spent a day with us. We had to buy and new lawn mower and so I have been cutting grass. (love that) The new mower is great. I can cut this big yard in 3 hours. Sure wish I had bought this a long time ago. The leaves are falling and everything is getting ready to go to sleep for the winter. I just hope that everything will come back next spring. I love my yard and it sure looks beautiful now except for the leaves.
I had hoped to get a new flower house before winter but did not make it so I will have to make do again with what I have. Oh well that is better than some people have. I should not complain the Lord has so richly blessed me with a great family. I am so grateful that Jordyn is through her surgery and doing okay. I hate that she has to hurt like she does but at least she will be better soon. I love my girls so very much. I am leaving on Oct first to go out there to visit them and go to conference. Can't wait. I have always wanted to do that so I finally get to go. I am excited to go and be in a room with a prophet of the Lord in the same room. Life is good and I love to live it most of the time. I only pray that Charles will be okay while I am gone.

I get farther and farther apart doing my job of writing. I have so much going on that I can't seem to find the time to sit down and do this. I want to keep up with it but just don't seem to be able to. We have had a good week except Charles has some cold and he is having a hard time finding air. His blood sugar has been high for a week now and I guess I will have to take him back to see the doctor. I was hoping he would get better by himself but it doesn't look like that is happening. I have my tickets to go to Utah and 2 tickets for conference so I am excited to go out there. I have always wanted to go to conference and this is the first time I have had a chance to go. I hope it will all work out. I will get to see my youngest granddaughter baptised and see conference. Boy what a treat. I bought about 80 pounds of pork on Friday so I have to make sausage again. I am not out of sausage but I have to take care of the meat so here we go and I have to buy it when it is on sale. I wish I could afford to buy it at any time but that ain't going happen.

Charles bought me a new lawn mower on Friday. I want be able to buy much of anything now. That thing cost a lot of money. I sure hope it last better than all the other ones we bought. I will try to get a picture of it and put in on here before long. I am so grateful for all that I have the Lord has really blessed me with all the needs of my life. Thank you Father in Heaven.

Today has been a lazy day. I was suppose to get up early and go to Milton to Elisha's Dedication but he got sick so they had to postpone it until a later date. So I have just sat around all day. I got up and fixed breakfast and messed around and crochet all day until I had to get up and get ready to go to Crestview with Hazel Adams to get her Patriartical Blessing. I so lazy that I did not even get up and go to church this morning. I have not done that in a long time. But I did watch BYU tv all day. So I had better church anyway. I saw the choir and ever thing. It was really good. I had a good ride with Hazel to Crestview. We had a good talk. Then I had a chance to talk to Diane about Kenny. She said she had been up to see him yesterday. I know that Bonita was please to see them. She had called me and ask who she could get to help her with getting Kenny in Church. Love that boy and sure wish I knew what to do for him.

I work hard in the Yard on Friday so hard that I blew up the Lawn Mower. I mean it blew. I am going to had to buy a new motor for it now. But I was tired of putting oil in it every time I cranked it. So maybe when I get it fixed this time it will be a much better mower. I love to cut grass. I have a lot to cut to. l