It has been such a long time since I put anything on here. I have been over run with funerals lately. There has been 4 in the past two weeks. First I lost my only living Aunt Elizebeth Lawson. so sad to see her go. She was the last of y Dads siblings. She was 91 years old and had done quite well for 90 years. Kinda like Dad. Then we lost Charles best friend in Pensacola, Bill Akins. He was only 87 but had had a great life and loved the Lord with all his heart. He loved to come up here and spend time with us. He loved to pick peas and watermelons. Was really sad to loose him. Then My Ex brother in law Alton Rogers. That one was not so bad. He was very ruff and mean some times. Now I have a very dear friend in the funeral home. She has been a friend for a long time her Name was Naomi Anderson. She was such a wonderful lady but she has been sick for a long time. I know she is much happier now. I hope this will be the end for awhile. I am so tired of going to funerals. Charles has had a fair winter and I hope it will continue to stay good. He has such a hard time some time trying to breath.

I enjoy doing my facebook thing and playing the zoo and farm game on there. That is what takes up a lot of my time. I have Megan coming back to stay with me in the afternoons and that makes my day go by faster. She is a good kid and such a pleasure to keep her.

Been having some really bad back pain. Not sure why. I am going to try going to the doctor in the morning. Michelle and Joseph got me a new bed hoping that would help but I don't think its going to. Probably need one of those expensive beds.

I know its been a long time since I wrote anything but I have been so busy with Charles being sick and all that kind of stuff. He is still not doing as well as I wish he could but I guess I will just have to take what I get. Hi has a really hard time getting enough air in his lungs. I wish everyone that smokes could see how much trouble he has and maybe they would quit. I feel so sorry for him some times. He wants to do things but just can't do it. He can't hardly take care of the chickens any more. That use to be his favorite thing to do. Now he rides out there with me and I have to do it.

Jenna had her baby last Saturday. It was a little girl her name is Hayden Raeanne Peoples. She weighed in at 5 pounds and 6.5 ounces. I don't know how long she was But I understand she had a head full of black hair like her Mother. I do hope that she will go on to school and make something of herself. She is such a good girl. Just make a big mistake. And maybe it was not a mistake just an error in judgement.

I hope that Jordyn has gotten better with her health problems. I wish they could find out what is wrong with her. I have been so worried about her. She is such a good girl and I am so afraid that something will happen to her. God forbid. I love her so much.

It has been a good Christmas and New Year but I have been so busy. Charles spent some time in the hospital and I got so far behind with all my work that I can not catch up. I finally got all the lap blankets done for the church. We finally got 16 made and I finished 12 at least. I did 7 of them all by myself. Had to hem all of them but one. Sister Coleman made the one and that is all she did. Sister Snyder made 1 and helped me with some of the other. Most of them I did by myself. But I enjoy doing them I am now excited to do baby quilts for all the grandchildren. I already have the 4 great grandchildren covered. It was fun to do them for Christmas. My sweet Audra taught me how to knit over the Christmas Holiday and I have made 3 hats for the great grandchildren I Love doing that. I have had everything to do here since Charles came home from the hospital. I want let him go outside. It has been so cold. We go up this morning with no hot water. It was all frozen. But I finally have that all thawed out so I can now get a bath.

I finished my ironing this morning so I am slowly catching things up. I wish I could remember all the things I wanted to put down but for some reason when I sit down here my mind goes blank. All I know is that I Love my Savior and am so pleased that I grew up knowing how much he loved me. That he died just so I could lived again and be with him if I but live a good life. I try every day to do better and I pray that I will always keep trying. I hope my children know just how very much I have always loved them. They have always been my life and still are. I worry so much about Jordyn and pray that they find what is going on with her. She is such a beautiful and sweet young Lady. Heavenly Father Please help me to understand and except thy will in all matters.

Oh my goodness it has been awhile since I wrote something. I have been so busy. There was Thanksgiving, and then Family Reunion. Boy was I tired after all that. It took me 2 weeks to get rested over that then Charles got sick and went to the hospital for 3 days so I was up most all the time with him. He was really sick on me and I thought I was going to loose him. His heart was racing so fast and he is to old to have that happen to him. Anyway the doctors tell me there is not much that they can do for him. He has had 85 good years so he says that he is ready to go. During all that the church decided that they wanted to make quilts for the Nursing Home so I made 13 quilts in a month. That almost worked me to death but I learned to love doing it so now I hope that I can make one for all my Grandchildren. I know that one day they will appreciate them. I am so very proud of all my Grand kids and I want them to know just how much I love them. The weather has been bad today it has rained all day long. I have not been out of the house except to feed the dog and cat. I hope it want be so long before I come back again. God bless us all.

I have been so bad and not wrote anything for a long time. I just stay so busy. I have been making quilts for the Relief Society. so for I have about 12 of them done. They want 15 to give to the Nursing Home and can't get anyone to help make them. It seems to me they have great expectations but no one will follow through. I have really enjoyed doing this because it makes me think about Mom a lot. I know that she loved doing it. I am just thankful that I know how and can do it.

Charles has had phenomena so I have had to stay in the house with him and make sure he did the things he was suppose to do. I have been trying to keep him out of the hospital. I am just tired of always having to do for some one else. It seems that every day there is someone wanting me to do something. I just have to keep saying Heavenly Father help me to stay where I can. Sometimes I wonder do they appreciate what I do. I just have to keep remembering that "Kindness, Patience, Understanding, Tolerance and Unity will increase as we serve others, while Jealously, Envy, and Selfishness decrease or disappear. The more we give of ourselves the more our capacity to Serve, Understand, and Love will grow.

I am suppose to go this morning and get my H1N1 virus shot. I hope that it does not make me sick. Right now my back is hurting me so bad I can't hardly sit here and sure can walk. It has to get better because it can't get any worse. I pray that I don't have to have surgery. I had to get all my flowers in the green house and I have been in trouble ever since. Then yesterday I had to unload 300 pound of feed to feed all these animals here. But I had to or Charles would have so I choose the lesser of two evils. He tries to be good to me but doesn't have anything to be good with.

Well we got passed Jack's surgery. Went back to the doctor yesterday and he was released to light duty. He can drive but can't pick up anything over 5 to 10 pounds. He sounds good and is suppose to come by tomorrow to get his flu shot. I guess I just need to become a nurse so I can do all of this with no problem. I have had to give so many shots and things since I got to old to do that kind of stuff.

I have spent the day today putting mu flowers in the green house. It is starting to turn cold and I sure do not want to loose them. I have got most of them taken care of so that I want have to worry about them. Still have to put plastic on the front porch so I can keep my ferns in there. They will be all right as long as the frost cant get to them. At least that is what every one says. I usually have to buy new ones every year but was hoping to save them this year. They were beautiful.

I have a big back ache from all the lifting. but I will be okay. I have to go watch Breezy and Megan in the beauty pageant Saturday afternoon so I have to get better. I have to pick up pecans also. got a few and I need to get them up. I would love to cut the leaves up in the yard so it will look better also. Just not enough time in a day any more.

I am so Thankful for what health I have and that I am able to do all that I do. I guess I do fair for a 71 year old. I feel good most of the time. Thank you Father in Heaven for all that I have and for my Children most of all. I love them so very much.

Have had a long day. Got up at 4:30 AM. Got ready and went to the hospital with Jack. Was suppose to have his surgery at 8 AM but had a emergency from a wreck and did not get to him until after 1 PM. I was tired of sitting and my feet was swollen so bad they ached. But they finally got started and it did not take them long to finish. He came up to the room and was hurting quite a bit. Gave him some meds and he was off to sleep. I hope that he slept all night which would be better than I have done. I went to bed at 9:30 and was up at 11:30. For some reason I could not sleep tonight. I have to be up and back at the hospital early this morning to take him home. I am going to be one tired lady tonight.It is now 3 AM and I still can not go to sleep.

Today 34 years ago I gave birth to a wonderful beautiful red haired baby girl. I loved her so very much. She grew up to be such a pleasure. She now has 3 wonderful girls of her own. I hope some day that they all know how very much I love them. I am so grateful to Father in Heaven for the opportunity to be the Mother and Grandmother of these girls. They are so full of life and sure wonderful girls. I pray that the Lord will always bless them that they will only know happiness. I hope they never have to feel the pain or loss that I have had to endure. they have always been such and joy in my life.

I have a terrible week. I had heartburn so bad all week that I thought I wanted to die. Any way maybe I have gotten it better. I am not hurting this morning anyway. I tired 5 lap blankets while I was hurting. We are doing them for the Nursing Home. I have enjoyed doing that. I have tried togeather up the leaves out of the yard but can't hold out to do many of them at a time. I don't know how I will ever get all of them up. Plus the pecan are ready to pick up. My back just will not let me do all that I need to get done.

I have to go to Andalusia this morning with Charles to court. He has a small claims case against Wacovia Bank for the CD that they will not give him his money for. I don't know how that is going to work out. I will just have to wait and see.I am so sick of banks lately that I am about ready to close all my accounts and put my money in my back pocket. Someone had fun on my First National Bank account and spent 750.00 dollars of my money and I had to fight to get that back. I don't know what this world is coming to.

Jack will have surgery again in the morning. He now has a rip in his intestine form the last surgery. I hope this one will get him all well and he doesn't have to have any more. We have done everything to keep them from giving him morphine so I hope we got that all covered. He goes nuts when they give it to him.

Today I can't hardly do anything, my back hurts so bad and my thumb want work. I tried sleeping in my brace on the thumb but it did not help much. I sure wish I knew what was wrong with it put so far I have not gotten anyone to tell me what is wrong.

I have a funeral to go to today. It is Brother Bob Robarbs. He fell off his riding lawn mower and broke his neck. They did surgery on him and he would be paralyzed from the neck down. Then they unplugged him from the machine and he died. I know that had to be hard for Barbara to do. She loved him so much. They went every where together. I sure hope I don't ever have to make that kind of decision. I am so thankful that I have the gospel in my life. I don't know what I would do if I did not know the things I know. I am grateful to Father in Heaven for giving his Son to die for us. I only wish that I and everyone else would learn to appreciate this and learn to love him and keep his Commandments. I have a testimony of this and I am so grateful for that. I pray that I can live my life so that I can go and be with my Father and Mother. I miss them so very much and Love them with all my heart. I pray that I never did anything to hurt them and that when they died they knew that I loved them with all my heart.

I have been working on my yard. I have leaves all over and they are hard to get up. I wish I could keep it looking like it does in the summer. I love it when its all clean and green I have to much to do. I have to pick up pecans and and rack the leaves and try to cut grass again. It got out of hand while I was in Utah. Sometimes I wish I could go back and stay out there.

I have been busy since I got home from Utah trying to catch things up that did not get done. I have a hard time doing all that needs to get done because I can only think about all the things I saw and did while I was out there. I see Presidents Hinkley's headstone and his cane laying there and I just want to sit down and cry. He was such a good man and a Wonderful leader that it makes it hard for me to realize that he is gone. I guess it took seeing all that to make me know that he is gone.

Charles has been really sick for the last few days. Not sure what is wrong with him but he says he is very weak and can't hardly get up and down. He managed to get on the tractor yesterday and I had to go help him pull up the post. He could not get down and wrap the chain around the post to pull it. Now I have a serious back ache because I started picking up pecans. I have to get that done and clean the leaves from my yard. It is a mess but I can only do one thing at a time.

Michelle is going to work a double today. She came home at 11:30 P.M. and is going back at 7:00 A.M. and work until 11:00P.M. She will be dead on her feet. But I guess she will have her double pulled and want have one for some time again. I know it will be hard for her to catch up her sleep though. She is one that can't do without her sleep. She sleeps all the time if nothing is bothering her. Wish I could sleep some. I have been up since 4:30 this morning. My Legs were cramping so bad that I could not sleep. Maybe one day.

I love my Father in Heaven and I know that he loves me. I have to many things that are good in my life for him not to love me. I thank him daily for all that he does for me. I am so grateful that I know the things I know and that I can thank him. Life is wonderful most of the time.

I have the family invitations done and ready to mail. I am so glad that I have that done now I can start on next years. It takes me a year to finish them. I just get lazy and don't do anything with them until I run out of time. hope everyone comes and has a good time.

I have had a wonderful visit with Letha and Melissa. While there I had a visit with the Andreason's, the Glads and Bracken's. I also had the most wonderful opportunity to attend conference. What a great and glorious opportunity that was. To be in the room when the humble and wonderful Prophet came into the room and to see everyone in that room stand and be very silent. What powerful messages they all had to give us. I wish that we could have some of that happen down here so that we did not have to receive it from television. I am still very grateful that when can get it from television. I don't know what would happen if we did not have the chance to listen to the prophet on television.

I am so very proud of my children. They are such good kids and have done very good for themselves. They all have such beautiful children and they are such sweet kids. I would love to bring them home with me for a vacation. Maybe I could have the chance to repay them for the kindness that showed me while I was visiting with them. They all treated me with such respect. I was so very impressed with them. I love them all so very much.

I went to the Book store while in Utah and bought myself some new books and videos. Got some new temple garments while there. Got a new supply of books and clothes. I love to go and visit but am always glad to come home also. Charles was very anxious for me to come home. I think that he realized that he really needs me here to help him take care of himself. He was so cute about the whole thing though. He didn't want me to know how bad he wanted me to come home.

Even Jack came by yesterday to see about me and to tell me that he had scheduled his surgery for November the 3rd. He has always said I don't have to be there but he came by to make sure that I knew when it was going to be. Big boy is not so big when it comes to being alone for scary times. I love him so very much. He is a great brother.

I also got to spend a couple of nights with my wonderful son. One before I went to Utah and one after I came home. I have such a good time with them. They are such wonderful children. My grandson is such an great young man. I can't believe how much he does for his Mom and Dad and what a special young man he has turned out to be. Mike has been a wonderful Father for him. I am so grateful that he has been such a great Dad. He loves to take him hunting and fishing and all kinds of fun things to do. I hope that they can always have that kind of relationship. That is what Heavenly Father would want us to to. To teach our children how to have fun and how to work to take care of ourselves and a bonus how to take care of our parents when they get older. Cindy has such a love for people. She amazes me at how kind she is.

I am leaving on a jet plane. Hurray. I am going to Utah and spend 2 weeks with my girls. I get to go to conference for the first time in my life. It is something that I have always wanted to do and now I have the chance. I do hope that I want be to much trouble for the girls. I know they have a life and I sure do not want to take them away from things they want and need to do. Melissa has a volley ball and Letha has work. I just know that I love them and want to spend some quality time with them and my grandchildren. I know that I want be around for to many more years so I just need to let them know how much I love them and pray for them that they can have a wonderful life. I only wish for them better than what I had. I Pray that none of them ever have to face the things that I had to face. I worry so much that they want know how to take care of their family if things get really hard. I know that the Lord will bless them if they will stay close to him and ask for those blessing. I wish I had the money to help them with all the things that they need. and some of what they want.

I went to the Relief Society Conference last night. Oh what a powerful meeting that was. I love to hear Sister Beck and President Eyring. What a wonderful man he must be. I believe I could sit and listen to him all day. I did get tired and had to stand up for awhile but that was because I was going to have to drive back from Ft. Walton. Was a long drive there and we had to be there at 6 we had a musical program before the conference. One of the Sisters in Crestview plays the violin and what a job she does. She is the Bishop's wife in the 2nd ward. He is the new doctor in town. Such a cute couple, their name is Roberts. She is expecting their 5th child. She looks so young. She played while she was at BYU and won lots of awards. I should be so lucky.

This may be the last time I get to post anything for two weeks. I am going to Utah and visit the girls and go to conference. I cant wait to see my girls. I wish there was some way I could let them know how very much I love all of them. My life has always been center around my children and they have been my life. Next to My Father in Heaven there is nothing I love more. I wish that they lived close enough that I could see them more often but that was their choose. They are good girls and I am very proud of them as well as all my children. Michael makes me so proud that I could pop with all his talent. Such beautiful things he makes.

Good morning, Today had already been a long day. I was up at 5:00 AM Had cramps in my legs so bad I could not sleep. As soon as the daylight came I was outside trimming the yard that I cut yesterday. I got that all done and was back in the house by 8 AM. Now I am hot and tired. Bit I will do no more today. I have a meeting in Ft. Walton Beach this evening. I will be going to the Relief Society Conference meeting. We are suppose to have a music presentation before it starts with a light meal. If there is food then I will be there. I have been blessed with some beautiful flowers this year some I have never seen before. I only wish I could keep them from freezing this winter. They sure cost me a arm and leg to replace. Charles has really been having a hard time finding air. I am not so sure that I need to go off and leave him but I want to go so bad. All I can do is pray that he will be okay until I get back. He tells me he will be fine. I am very excited to go to conference. I will also get to see the Brackins, Glads, and some of the girls while I am out there. I only wish I could see them all. Maybe I will also get to see the Andreasons. Anyway this is a picture of my Star Cactus.

Went to church this morning. No one was there. We only had 7 members from our branch. We had the stake high council and his family which made it be 12. I am so afraid that they are going to close this branch. Just can't get Michelle to go. No one seems to be interested in going any more. I love Father in Heaven and I wish I could get everyone to Love him that way. I would do anything for him, but it is hard when everything you say or do is misinterpreted. I wish I could go some place else sometimes. It is so hard to be the only one that will do anything. I am sure they have problems also but we need to remember that Heavenly Father died for us so we could live with him again if we do what we should. I try very hard but fail so I am thankful that he is a forgiving Father in Heaven. Today is a bad day for me. I am hurting so bad in my back. I can't hardly sit and sure can't stand.

Oh my goodness. I am so far behind. I have been sick, and Charles has been sick. We have had company. Richard Young (my nephew) and his family have been here and spent a couple of days and Charles's friend Ronnie and wife Laura came and spent a day with us. We had to buy and new lawn mower and so I have been cutting grass. (love that) The new mower is great. I can cut this big yard in 3 hours. Sure wish I had bought this a long time ago. The leaves are falling and everything is getting ready to go to sleep for the winter. I just hope that everything will come back next spring. I love my yard and it sure looks beautiful now except for the leaves.
I had hoped to get a new flower house before winter but did not make it so I will have to make do again with what I have. Oh well that is better than some people have. I should not complain the Lord has so richly blessed me with a great family. I am so grateful that Jordyn is through her surgery and doing okay. I hate that she has to hurt like she does but at least she will be better soon. I love my girls so very much. I am leaving on Oct first to go out there to visit them and go to conference. Can't wait. I have always wanted to do that so I finally get to go. I am excited to go and be in a room with a prophet of the Lord in the same room. Life is good and I love to live it most of the time. I only pray that Charles will be okay while I am gone.

I get farther and farther apart doing my job of writing. I have so much going on that I can't seem to find the time to sit down and do this. I want to keep up with it but just don't seem to be able to. We have had a good week except Charles has some cold and he is having a hard time finding air. His blood sugar has been high for a week now and I guess I will have to take him back to see the doctor. I was hoping he would get better by himself but it doesn't look like that is happening. I have my tickets to go to Utah and 2 tickets for conference so I am excited to go out there. I have always wanted to go to conference and this is the first time I have had a chance to go. I hope it will all work out. I will get to see my youngest granddaughter baptised and see conference. Boy what a treat. I bought about 80 pounds of pork on Friday so I have to make sausage again. I am not out of sausage but I have to take care of the meat so here we go and I have to buy it when it is on sale. I wish I could afford to buy it at any time but that ain't going happen.

Charles bought me a new lawn mower on Friday. I want be able to buy much of anything now. That thing cost a lot of money. I sure hope it last better than all the other ones we bought. I will try to get a picture of it and put in on here before long. I am so grateful for all that I have the Lord has really blessed me with all the needs of my life. Thank you Father in Heaven.

Today has been a lazy day. I was suppose to get up early and go to Milton to Elisha's Dedication but he got sick so they had to postpone it until a later date. So I have just sat around all day. I got up and fixed breakfast and messed around and crochet all day until I had to get up and get ready to go to Crestview with Hazel Adams to get her Patriartical Blessing. I so lazy that I did not even get up and go to church this morning. I have not done that in a long time. But I did watch BYU tv all day. So I had better church anyway. I saw the choir and ever thing. It was really good. I had a good ride with Hazel to Crestview. We had a good talk. Then I had a chance to talk to Diane about Kenny. She said she had been up to see him yesterday. I know that Bonita was please to see them. She had called me and ask who she could get to help her with getting Kenny in Church. Love that boy and sure wish I knew what to do for him.

I work hard in the Yard on Friday so hard that I blew up the Lawn Mower. I mean it blew. I am going to had to buy a new motor for it now. But I was tired of putting oil in it every time I cranked it. So maybe when I get it fixed this time it will be a much better mower. I love to cut grass. I have a lot to cut to. l

Yesterday was Michael's Birthday. I did not get to talk to him but called Cindy and talked to her. She said he was home opening his cards when she left. I would have loved to talk to him but I cant reach him by phone so I just have to talk to Cindy whom I love very much. They are wonderful kids and I wish I could spend more time with them.

Today has been a lazy day. I really have not done any thing much. I fixed breakfast and dinner and that is about all that I have done.I had company this morning and again this afternoon. President and Sister Moore came up this morning and Gene Looman came by this afternoon. He has messed up his computer and thought he could fix it if he had wireless Internet. But like me he doesn't know enough about it so he did not get it fixed.

We had steak fingers and baked sweet potatoes for dinner. It was very good and I am stuffed now. Chuck came over this evening and got himself some watermelons. He stayed for a little while and went back to Jacks. I wish I could have the time to go over and spend some time with them. I miss all the fun things we use to do. I love my brothers and I wish that we lived closer together. They are really good to me. I love all my family and wish we all lived close enough that we could get together more often. I would love to have some pictures of all of us. I guess I will never be able to get another Family picture.

Today is my Michelle's Birthday. Lordly I am getting old. I wish I could make life so it would be better for her. She has had a bad day I am sure. I wish that Josephs kids would do like they should so she would not have to worry about them. I have had a busy day. Miss Effie and Uncle Bill, Don and his Wife came by and got some watermelons and I tried to clean the house before they got here. Of course I did not make it. My house stays a mess all the time. I have to much to do and I don't have time to clean house. I did have a good day. I caught 7 baby guineas and put them in the box with their Mother. So I hope I can raise them. They are so dang cute. I just love to find them and raise them up. They get loud when they get grown but I still love to raise them.

Betty Jo called me this morning. I guess she will be going home next Tuesday. She has been at Michelle's for 5 weeks. Michelle had to have some surgery. But all is well now.